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So today I was just not okay. Well I mean I was clearly okay but my eating wasnt and I was just lazy even though i give it to myself for doing a 4mile bike run late. I need to start getting up going earlier in the days lol. When I dont I get stuck with lal this 3am energy. So my eating has become an issuse again I am completely out of control with sugar so Im taking a stand aganist it.

 Next months personal challenge will be no processed sugar such as cakes or any of that mess except once a week I may have a meaning one single treat. Once I get it mostly out of my system I will be able to focus on more healthy positive energy producing foods again. Im ready for it I can do it cuz Im worth it. I notice now that working out is something I need to do not just I do because but its like I have to do it or I feel the stress start to pile on. I feel Im not doing something right if I dont get my butt out there. My mom really wants to look into going to the YMCA right up the street and I said hey Im in lets get this ball rolling. She really wants a adult tricycle to ride around on lol.

Right now Im sitting in the skirt that I bought 2 years ago and could never fit into quiet right. Then I gained more weight and couldnt fit into it at all. Im back to the I can fit into it but it still needs a little weight drop before being wearable in public. I cant wait to wear it the the beach this summer. I can do it!! Another 20lbs and this baby will fit like a glove!

 Well yeah I guess thats all for now. Im ready to rock May with everything I have. I need a new month to crush!

This song is by a fairly unknown artist but hes just amazing at guitar and has a great voice. Its great work out music and driving around music! Check it out! ps ignore the One Tree Hill montage with the video lol I love that show but yeah. The bold stuff reminds me of my weight loss journey

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zoCboVTJrLo

Lyrics-

I have been thinking, which I shouldn’t do
Cause it gets me in trouble and farther from you

I admit I take advice from more romantic minds
But I can proudly reassure you this idea was all mine

Hey ladies its been one crazy week. Ive had some good times and some bad. Im PMSing and Im STILL sick but its almost gone. Only 1 of my sinus’s if filled right now my left ear grr. I spend saterday at the beach catching waves. It was sooooo nice I forgot why I live in FL but I refound it and Im going to do my darndest to not let it go again. I rode my bike the 4miles home from the beach too woot woot. I just got a bike chain so I can ride there more. So excited for school to be over.

My new motto is “Today will be the best day of my life until tomorrow.” Yeah Im loving it not letting the little things get me down but Im feeling kind of yuck right now. Anyways Im 50 miles in on my 100 mile challenge!!! Halfway baby!I just CRUSHED a 5mile bike ride it was sooo nice. Im getting a tan for liek the first time ever lol now if someone could tell my arms tan to tell my legs to tan. My legs are still soo white. So great. I will be around more this week because its not as busy. My brother comes back from military school this weekend its going to be a great family get together! Im very excited for this. Ive been loving life but totally hating this cold. Im fighting it everyway I can. I have been kind of lovin all the little things Ive been noticing about my weight loss. Like needing to add holes in my belt loop and fitting into pants that use to be super tight. Pants getting too loose. My legs since Ive been riding the bike and such have gotten sooo amazing lol. Like for real my calves are great.

The other day while at the beach I noticed afterwards how much progress Ive really made. Emotionally I absolutely didnt even think I was nay different from anyone there or sticking out. Thats one of the first times in my life thats happened. I went in the ocean and all without fear. It is an amazing feeling realizing when your whole life you felt so different and werid that your not really different or werid. Im happy. This is song great, its fun and free!

video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uNW8q-Ucz18

lyrics-

She’s a good girl, loves her mama
Loves Jesus and America too
Shes a good girl, crazy ’bout Elvis
Loves horses and her boyfriend too

It’s a long day living in reseda
There’s a freeway runnin’ through the yard
And I’m a bad boy ’cause I don’t even miss her
I’m a bad boy for breakin her heart

And I’m free, free fallin’
Yeah I’m free, free fallin’

All the vampires walkin’ through the valley
Move west down ventura boulevard
And all the bad boys are standing in the shadows
All the good girls are home with broken hearts

And I’m free, free fallin’
Yeah I’m free, free fallin’
Free fallin’, now I’m free fallin’, now I’m
Free fallin’, now I’m free fallin’, now I’m

I wanna glide down over mulholland
I wanna write her name in the sky
Gonna free fall out into nothin’
Gonna leave this world for a while

And I’m free, free fallin’
Yeah I’m free, free fallin’

heyyyy. How are we doing? Today was a pretty amazing day. I got to teach my neice how to ride her bike. She rolled down the driveway and busted her a-s-s and I thought I would never get her back on it but I got on my bike and she got right back on hers. Thats my girl! She had a rough time at first but ended up getting the hang of it. She kept yelling Come on Bobbie haha I love that little girl.

 She sidetracked me so my bike ride was only 2miles instead of 4. So today its been 4miles total but Ill get aother one in from dancing later. And yesterday was 7 miles. So were up to 11 so far and after tonight 12! Im really loving this. I had a fantastic night. At the store I was standing behind a guy who looked like one of those people who’ve always had a rough life. I looked around and noticed more. What makes them different from me that I can pull myself up from that? Who makes the choices of who gets what? Its intersting to me. I know I work hard for what I have but I cant help but feel blessed for all those in my life who support me. We all really are very blessed but at the same time I cant help but feel we have something extra to be thankful for…something more than being okay with bare minumum…passion for life maybe. Im not sure

 Were here to go above and beyond in our lives. I hope to strive for it for always. This song is a throwback, ignore the werid video

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bo0ZGzandwE

Lyrics-

They read you Cinderella You hoped it would come true And one day a prince charming would come rescue you You like romantic movies And you never will forget The way it felt when Romeo kissed Juliet And all this time that you've been waiting You don't have to wait no more I can love you like that I would make you my world Move heaven and earth if you were my girl I would give you my heart Be all that you need Show you you're everything that's precious to me If you give me a chance, I can love you like that  I never make a promise I don't intend to keep So when I say forever Forever’s what I mean Well I am no Casanova But I swear this much is true, I’ll be holding nothing back When it comes to you You dream of love that's everlasting Well baby open up your eyes...  I can love you like that I would make you my world Move heaven and earth if you were my girl I would give you my heart Be all that you need Show you you're everything that's precious to me If you give me a chance, I can love you like that  If you want tenderness I’ve got tenderness And I see through to the heart of you If you want a man Who will understand You don't have to look very far  I can love you, girl I can (I can love you love you) Oh baby oh... I can love you like that I would make you my world Move heaven and earth if you were my girl I would give you my heart Be all that you need Show you you're everything that's precious to me I can love you like that I can make you my world Move heaven and earth if you were my girl I would give you my heart My heart my heart my world Show you you're everything (you're everything to me) Love you like that I can make you my world Move heaven and earth if you were my girl I would give you my heart My heart my heart my world Show you you're everything...

Hey ladies!!! how are we doing this fine night? Im good, slightly full. Just ate dindin. Tonight was a win for me even if I didnt eat super perfect all day. I still rocked it and was within my calories. I when I really didnt want to or just wasnt going to again made myself get my ass out that door and hit the pavement for my two mile walk/jog. I did it alone this time and it was sooo nice. My ipod died half way through so I got some thinking time. Usually I let the music drown out any real thoughts and replaces them with day dreams of Hollywood and love. So tonight I thought about life. Where I am, where I need to be. I thought about Debbie blogs about not rolling over and just taking it. As I walked by my house over and over again in the loop arounds the neighborhood I thoght of my family inside. They are not active people. They go to work then come home and let tv be their lives. We all do it in separate rooms. Right now we all have the tv on in separate rooms. I dont want this for my life. I want to be part of the speical crowd of people who are out exploring and making things happen in the world. I want to spend hours in a studio becoming entranced in the music then go out and play a pick up game of bball whileout worrying about being started at for being different or not winning because Im not fast enough. I want to go to the beach thinking of the fun of surfing a volleybal instead of how fat I look in my bathing suit. I want to be healthy for my neice and nephew so when they are older I can ride bikes with them and explore the world with them and some day my own children. I am doing it. I am changing. The last month has been rough but Ive never fully given up hope.

My new challenge is the other thing I dreamed up in LALA Land while walking/jogging my two miles. 100miles in the next month. 100miles- I can do it anyway I like. I can ride my bike, I can swim, I can walk, I can jog, I can crawl but 100miles of it within the next month. I know I can do it. It will be a challenge but I need a good challenge to save me and motivate me again. If anyone wants to join me feel free. I am starting tomorrow. I know I can do it and I wont give up.

This song is just sooo amazing I listen to it everyday and it reminds me of all us ladies and our becoming a rebal agaisnt the lives were so use to living. so will you become a rebal with me? lol just ignore the first min of this video thats my future husband (not literally) acting stupid hes a mess

video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_i573UcOvo

lyrics-

 I know you’re scared
Everybody gets a little bit of stagefright
But were prepared
And the mood is set
And it’s come together just right
What should we do now that we’re caught in the middle of the spotlight?
I can feel your butterflies
If we kiss will they fly away?

We had our whole life scripted
But we tossed it to the side
Those words can’t tell us nothing
Come on baby let’s improvise
Whoa
Do you trust me enough if we become two rebels?
Whoa
Just like outlaws on the run
All we have is each other
Whoa
We can eat, sleep, breathe our love
If you become a rebel with me

The night is young
And when everybody’s fast asleep we’re still rehearsing
The sun comes up
I can see you in the dark
But you’re looking even better in the morning
What should we do now that we’re caught in the middle of the sunlight?
You might even wanna hide
But together we can run away

We had our whole life scripted
But we tossed it to the side
Those words can’t tell us nothing
Come on baby let’s improvise
Whoa
Do you trust me enough if we become two rebels?
Whoa
Just like outlaws on the run
All we have is each other
Whoa
We can eat, sleep, breathe our love
If you become a rebel with me

Oh oh baby we’re two rebels
Oh oh in this black and white, black and white world [x4]

Do you trust me enough if we become two rebels?
Whoa
Just like outlaws on the run
All we have is each other
Whoa
We’re gonna eat, sleep, breathe our love
If you become a rebel with me

Will you become a rebel with me?

Hey ladies its liek 330am. Im not really sure why Im awake. I had food posioning last week. Yay fun…yeah no…not fun. It was our busiest week of the year at work too and guess what? I didnt let it stress me out like normal. I mean a lil worry but once I was there I said everytime I start to feel stress remember tomorrow this will be so yesterday. Then sang the Hilary Duff song So Yesterday in my head haha. I made great money, we did the cupid shuffle like 80times and listen to Jump and Tricky with all these girls. We had Cold Stone looking like a night club by the end of the night.

 Last week was off because most of the week I couldnt eat so I just drank Gateraid. Then I was so busy at work things got crazy but I refuse to let myself late night eat. Thats going back into patterns and Im not having it. I came home today and instead of getting crap out I had a nice chicken breast and a lil potatoe salad.My mom put bacon in it and I must say I cant do bacon anymore. Turkey bacon or none. I hate animal fat, it freaks me out I cant eat it. I use to be vegitarian and I just..no lol. Steaks or anything the fat must come off, I dont even want to look at it lol. I picky I dont eat skin either. Ive been working on moderation. The day I could eat again I got a not so nice lesson when I ate a huge whopper from BK and like was so full I couldnt move the rest of the night…moderation is my friend!!! And thats what Ive been doing.

My mom and I went an saw the Hannah Montana movie yesterday. I seriously cried. Ive been pretty emotional lately. This time of year hurts the most reminding me of my grandmother and that movie dug it in deeper because she was spending tiem wiht her grandmother in TN. Where Im from. Anyways its okay just still hurts every no and again. Its natural.

So Ive been so bored during the days around here since I no longer havem y gym to go to Im thinking about joining the Y right up the road. I might check it out tomorrow. I need more excersize and jogging in the midday sun is not the brightest idea, though it helps my tan.

 My next thing is taking something sweet I know I want right then and making myself wait for it. I say after diner or a work out or just more time has passed. Then when I eat it I feel so accomplished and it tastes sooo much better. I appriciate it so much more then the instant gratification. This is a lesson that goes a long way in my book.

I feel all my clothes gettings looser. A pair a capris that were super tight a month ago fits regular now so though Im not seeing it a lot on the scale Im feeling it and seeing my shape come back. Im really enjoying it. Okay Im done talking your ears off. This song reminds me of my youth and finger nail polish. Love you all!

videos- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5MMIzP8Mkyo&feature=related

lyrics-

Could you whisper in my ear
The things you wanna feel
I’d give you anythin’
To feel it comin’

Do you wake up on your own
And wonder where you are?
You live with all your faults

I wanna wake up where you are
I won’t say anything at all
So why don’t you slide

Yeah, I’m gonna let it slide

Don’t you love the life you killed?
The priest is on the phone
Your father hit the wall
Your ma disowned you

Don’t supposed I’ll ever know
What it means to be a man
It’s somethin’ I can’t change
I’ll live around it

I wanna wake up where you are
I won’t say anything at all
So why don’t you slide
Ooh, slide

And I’ll do anythin’ you ever dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothin’ that fall
Oh, May
Put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
Oh, May
Do you wanna get married Or run away?

And I’ll do anythin’ you ever dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothin’ that fall
Oh, May
Put your arms around me
What you feel is what you are
And what you are is beautiful
Oh, May
Do you wanna get married
Or run away?

I wanna wake up where you are
I won’t say anything

And I’ll do anythin’ you ever dreamed to be complete
(Yeah, slide)
Little pieces of the nothin’ that fall
(yeah slide)
And I’ll do anythin’ you ever dreamed to be complete
(Yeah slide)
Little pieces of the nothin’ that fall
(Oh, oh slide)
Yeah, slide between the sheets of all them beds you never knew
(Yeah slide)
Why don’t you slide into my room
Just slide into my room
Oh, we’ll run away, run away, run away

Hey, its been awhile. I’m tired its been a long eventful day. So heres my lastest journey woahs.

So saterday I did a 5k for junior diabeties. We rasied over 35,000 for the cause! It was really great my sister and neice was there with me. My neice was in her stroller but she didnt like that so she walked some but like a mile into the 3miles she just found some grass and sat her little butt right down. She was tired and over walking, she didnt want her stroller. So I felt bad for her and I carried her the rest of the way. She’s 32pounds, 5lbs more than the weight I lost. My arms hurt after awhile but she had fallin asleep so I just kept holding her and going. I was amazed by how much weight I have lost. Like I really felt it. I know how far I’ve come in this journey and now Im building the strenght to push on. It was a fantastic experience. I felt great about myself after.

Today I was walking around the grocery store. I was thinking of what I need. I’ve always bought the groceries for healthy living..or so I thought. Non fat, Low fat, Low sugar, light, fit. I never eat all the things I buy I let a good portion go to waste because I find fast food more appealing. So today I decided life isnt about low fat or no fat or low carb. Living a normal life is eating healthy by eating what you want in moderation. So instead of sugar free cookies, I bought cinnamon graham crackers and instead of non fat ice cream I got something coffee with more fat but the same amount of calories. Fat is good in moderation! I use to always think oh no fat! But milk fat now and again is okay. Im going to learn to eat waht I want when I want in moderation. Its a step in the right direction.

Today I got up and faced my aniexty head on. I havent been to one of my classes in a long time because of it. I know the professor and I know he will pass me as long as I keep coming and try to catch up with everyone. My heart was racing when I walked up to the door this morning and I kept my eyes low feeling people watch me walk in but I did it. I didnt let it defeat me. I also went and paid a big chunk of the buy out lease for my old place. When my sister gets home in a bit we will go on our walk/jog.

 Everyone of us is going through our own individual struggles and some days its hard to see the light of the tunnel. It so amazing how simple fitting into a pair of old pants, walking into a class room, carrying someone you love to the finish line or buying those chips you never got before because you know you can restrain yourself can make you feel so much stronger than you were. So much more, so much further than yesterday. I look forward to my tomorrows.

This song is great. Lets all Follow Through

Video-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AN_grtx8rPw

Lyrics-

Oh, this is the start of something good,
Don’t you agree?
I haven’t felt like this in so many moons,
You know what I mean?
And we can build through this destruction,
As we are standing on our feet.
So, since you want to be with me,
You’ll have to follow through,
With every word you say.
And I, all I really want is you,
You to stick around.
I’ll see you everyday,
But you have to follow through.
You have to follow through.

These reeling emotions they just keep me alive,
They keep me in tune. Oh, look what I’m holding here in my fire,
This is for you.
Am I too obvious to preach it?
You’re so hypnotic on my heart.

So, since you want to be with me,
You’ll have to follow through,
With every word you say.
And I, all I really want is you,(for) you to stick around. I’ll see you everyday,
But you have to follow through.

The words you say to me are unlike anything that’s ever been said.
Ahh, and what you do to me is unlike anything that ever been.
Am I to obvious to preach it? You’re so hypnotic on my heart,
So, since you want to be with me. You have to follow through, with every word you say. And I, all I really want is you, (for) you to stick around. I’ll see you everyday.

So, since you want to be with me, you’ll have to follow through with every word you say.
And I, all I really want is you, (for)you to stick around.
I’ll see you everyday, but you have to follow through. You have to follow through. You’re gonna have to follow.
Oh, this is the start of something good.
Don’t you agree?

Hello there interweb friends and lovedo nes. How are you all doing tonight? I come to you happy. I just finished dancing around my room. I love dancing its just sooo much fun! I am going through my own problems but Im feeling extreamly positive right now. I went jogging tonight outside. Its sooo nice. My pants were seriously falling off I was like omg stop! But then I was like duhhh you want that to happen lol. So time to switch pants. I have been lazy with my eating like I ate really good today because I didnt have junk to consume but I could have done better. Ive really been obsessed with music lately. Im waiting till next month when I will start getting a good cash flow again to finish parts of the studio I cant right now. Then I will be out of school and seriously living inside my own musical world most of the days. Then you ladies will probably start seeing some of my music creeping onto my blogs. You can laugh at me hehe

 So the downfall to all this postiveness. Im feeling my anixety starting to push back in my life. I dont feel liek doing anything because of it, just sitting around watching tv. Like Im so freaked out and Im started to make excuses about things and lettign life pass me by again. I can never pin point why this happens it just does and I have to stand up and over come it. I am going to go get my St. Johns Wort and start taking that again. It normally makes me feel much better. Ive made so much progress I dont want to let it fall.

I am feeling myself adjust to this new location and Im starting to get back into my eating/work out groove. I just need to go to class tomorrow and try to ride it out for the next month. I can do it. I believe in me.

I was looking in the mirror today seeing the beautiful again. I love myself. I am wonderful. I just see myself sooo much better and I want to find a way to that place. I was thinking about how we all start off as these pretty little rose buds just waiting to bloom. Im right there…right on the edge. Collecting my plant food, gettign my energy so I can bloom into this positive full flower. My life is so wonderful and I am so blessed but Im not where I belong just yet, Im not who I want to be. But Im working on getting there. The next three months are going to be my testing point. This will be the hump from where I am to where I want to be. Its time for me to step up my game and be on it.

My emotional unavalibilty has gotten worst too. Poor Chris. Hes been getting a lot of cold shoulders but Ive just not been able to take care of me.

Thanks for being amazing ladies!!! Heres some lyrics to my new fav song/ a new band i love.

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XDGQjC5AJak

Lyrics-

There was a place we used to go
When we were young, the gravel road
We wasted all our summers holding hands, oh
I went to college out of state
A path so sure I had to take it
We promised that we’d be the same
When I got back, you were gone

Now I’m driving around my old hometown
Wondering how I let you slip away
And just when you think you’ve got it figured out
Everything changes, yeah

Do you ever think you made the wrong decision?
What would happen if you ever did it differently
‘Cause just trying to live a life, can be unpredictable
Do you ever think you made the wrong decision?
Do you wonder if you ever should have stayed with me?
‘Cause just trying to live a life, can be unpredictable
And it’s unpredictable

I got back home, the weather changed
They called for sun but we got rain
The gravel road must’ve been rearranged
‘Cause I was waiting there, just like we planned

I did the party thing at school
Got over it, pretty soon
I graduated, thought I made it
But oh no, oh no
So I’m back at the place where I started from
Feels like I haven’t moved at all
When all of the things that you count on begin to fall

Do you ever think you made the wrong decision?
What would happen if you ever did it differently
‘Cause just trying to live ypur life, can be unpredictable
Do you ever think you made the wrong decision?
Do you wonder if you ever should have stayed with me?
‘Cause just trying to live your life, can be unpredictable

I don’t belong here
Where did I go wrong, here?
And I’m feeling older

I can feel the changes all around me, here the come again

Do you ever think you made the wrong decision?
What would happen if you ever did it differently
‘Cause just trying to live my life, can be unpredictable
Do you ever think you made the wrong decision?
Do you wonder if you ever should have stayed with me?
‘Cause just trying to live a life, can be unpredictable
And it’s unpredictable

Ive been feeling kind of bummed lately well not bummed but like letting my anixety about people start to come back so I am starting to take my st. johns warts again. I listened to this song though and it really made things better. Like it just made me better. I felt empowered and strong. Its a good song for that. I thought I had posted it and checked my past blogs. Reading how far Ive come has really helped me tonight. I mean..the way I view eating now has changed soo much in the last few months and Im eating things I never thought I would. I can jog outside and not be afraid of who says what. I have kind of fell back in the body image issues department though. Ive been looking in the mirror letting myself slip back into the not pretty department. I know it will pass and I know I am beautiful always but some days I just fell so ..big..yeah. But I know in reality Im not. I guess more digging to hash that problems core will have to be done. Im happy Im off the next two days. My good friend Mike is coming into town this weekend. I havent seen him in awhile. Im also letting my sleep hours be all crazy like its 3am and here I am instead of in bed….I just had dejavu …god must be trying to tell me something..like go to bed…anyways love all you girls Im still my positive bubbly self just got to get some great excersize endorphines going!! Have a good day tomorrow ladies!

Whenever your feeling blue remember all the wonderful things you are!! This song is a fantastic reminder of that!!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qh3yv4tNkCA

Lyrics-

I’m an angel, I’m a devil
I am sometimes in between
I’m as bad as it can get
And good as it can be
Sometimes I’m a million colours
Sometimes I’m black and white
I am all extremes
Try to figure me out you never can
There’s so many things I am

I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
and powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I’m miserable
Sometimes I’m pitiful
But that’s so typical of all the things I am

I’m someone filled with self-belief
I’m haunted by self-doubt
I’ve got all the answers
I’ve got nothing figured out
I like to be by myself
I hate to be alone
I’m up and I am down
But that’s part of the thrill
Part of the plan
Part of all of the things I am

I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
and powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I’m miserable
Sometimes I’m pitiful
But that’s so typical of all the things I am

I’m a million contradictions
Sometimes I make no sense
Sometimes I’m perfect
Sometimes I’m a mess
Sometimes I’m not sure who I am
But,
I am special
I am beautiful
I am wonderful
And powerful
Unstoppable
Sometimes I’m miserable
Sometimes I’m pitiful
But that’s so typical of all the things I am

Hey ladies! How are we doing today? Ive had better days beginnings but Ive made some good choices. The last few weeks I can feel myself going back into my old ways of giving up on life..not so much my new healthy way of life but just giving up. Like instead of going to class I sleep in and stay up late playing on the computer or avoiding life completely. Im loving working but letting myself fall into it again. I was doing os good too but now Im starting to let school freak me out. I think its because my french class is just too much and my teacher is not helpig me at all Ive emailed him like 10times asking for this project information that he supposely sent out to all of us. So I decided today I have time so I will drop my franch class today. yay!! all is well in my world. I finished my 5page paper last night about separation of chruch and state…my teachers going to crack up at this. I lvoe that class/teacher. Tonight I work and Im pretty excited. I love my job. Then tomorrow I go and make sure my apartments ready for the walk through that will take place Friday. Then it will be done. With the exception of finishing paying off the buy out! Yay that another reason Im working so much!

 So yesterday I got a group of Jonas lovers liek myself together who want to lose weight and I showed them al this lovely site and were going to have a challenge through our Jonas cocnerts in August! Woohoo for being hot at the show!!

Life is wonderful and worth it all. Ladies lets get up off our butts and back into our lives! Lets be the leading ladies in our own worlds again and stop letting our brains cheat us out of all the adventerous stuff we deserve! Girls we can do it!

Lets stop letting everyone (exspecally ourselves) that we cant do it, we cant make our dreams come true! Lets prove them wrong! This song is very cute. At first I didnt like it but its one of those songs that you know you will like eventually. They lyrics are amazing! Story of my life sometimes!

video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hPPmLZ9dcRA

Lyrics-

Everybody tells me that
It’s so hard to make it
It’s so hard to break in
There’s no way to fake it
Everybody tells me that it’s wrong what i’m feeling
I shouldn’t believe in
The dreams that I’m dreaming

I hear it everyday
I hear it all the time
I’m never gonna amount to much
But they’re never gonna change my mind
Oh!

Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Something I don’t know, something I don’t know
Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Something I don’t know, something I don’t know

How many inches in a mile
What it takes to make you smile
Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby

Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Something I don’t know, something I don’t know

Tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Tell me, tell me something I don’t know

Everybody tells me
I don’t know what I’m doing
This life I’m pursuing
The odds I’ll be losing
Everybody tells me that
It’s one in a million
More like one in billion or
one in a zillion

I hear it everyday
I hear it all the time
I’m never gonna amount to much
But they’re never gonna change my mind, oh

Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Something I don’t know, something I don’t know
Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Something I don’t know, something I don’t know

How many inches in a mile
What it takes to make you smile
Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby

Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Something I don’t know, something I don’t know

So here’s the track
Like Catrina makes a
wish Medina
Make em say ‘I’m ready’

Are you ready for it
SELENA:Yeah I’m ready for it
Really ready for it?
sELENA:Yeah I’m ready for it
Let’s get ready for it

I’m on my way
I know I’m gonna get there someday
It doesn’t help when you say
It won’t be easy

Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Something I don’t know, something I don’t know
Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Something I don’t know, something I don’t know

How many inches in a mile What it takes to make you smile
Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby

Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Something I don’t know, something I don’t know
Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Something I don’t know, something I don’t know
Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Something I don’t know, something I don’t know

How many inches in a mile
What it takes to make you smile
Getcha not to treat me like a child, baby

Tell me, tell me, tell me something I don’t know
Something I don’t know, something I don’t know

 Emotionally unavailable people are hard to get close to, and even harder to stay close to. They don’t want a “normal” relationship–they want to be alone, with other people, or off doing their own thing–which invariably does not include you. 

How do people act emotionally unavailable? 
* They’re emotionally distant and extremely remote, except when courting.

* They’re too busy, sick, tired or preoccupied with other things. Their energy, time and life-force are all taken with other priorities.

* They frequently work a lot , and don’t have quality time to spend with you.

* They’re not responsive. They ignore you and your requests, and they don’t try hard to make a relationship work.

* They don’t, won’t or can’t commit to a relationship.

* They may be extremely critical and judgmental, so you may have a hard time doing anything “right” in their eyes.

* They may flirt with other people, and may not value monogamy.

* They may watch TV or sports a lot, read, work-out, or otherwise be preoccupied with something or someone that routinely interferes with their ability to be with you.
* They may be addicted to some substance, such as alcohol, drugs or food, which renders them incapable of being present  and truly available to another person.

* People already married or involved with someone else are 
frequently emotionally unavailable, regardless of what they 
profess.
* They do not place a value on acting with honesty, honor or 
integrity in their relationships with others. They’re full 
of excuses as to why they can’t be with you, do things with 
you, or be available for you.

If it seems that you routinely love your partner more than he or
she loves you, that you express affection, care and commitment more
than you receive, presume that you are involved with an emotionally
unavailable partner. 

Emotionally unavailable people may profess to love you and care
about you, and they may make wonderful promises about your future
together, but they don’t follow through with believable behaviors
that make you feel wanted and secure around them.

Welcome to my life…no I am not with this kind of person…I AM this kind of person. I am so hard headed when it comes to those I love. Just recently I realized how much I need my family and make it a point to spend more tiem with them…yet I can only allow myself to get soo close to the one who truely loves me before I just begin the shut down process. Hes so patient and kind. He puts up with a lot from me but I sabotage it in everyway possible. Somedays I say your aqt the right age you should be settling down but mostly others I say my dreams take me sooo far away from life that it will never work…I dont know what im talkign about or if I really have a point

Tonight I was thinking about parenting and why Im glad Im getting healthy and changing my eating habits and living habits. I dotn want my children to worry about me as I do my parents. Not about my moms health or my dads lungs from smoking so long.

Im also scared of my dreams…liek I know Im working on it more everyday but I just feel as if Im getting no where in this life. Two steps forward three steps back…I have a wonderful plan for this year and so far its not taking full effect because Im not giving it my all. Yes I have been working on music and I started teaching but my weight hasnt really dont much since the beginning of the year and I know why. Ive made too many excuses and let moving/stress from bad relationships stand in the way of my healtheir me. I mean dont get me wrong I still work out and kick butt, and my eating habits are really changing but Im just sitll eating too much crap. I now have more avalible to me health wise to eat since Im eating healthier so I should make that work more and hold myself more accountable. 

 I am only human and I have off days but I know I am still amazing beautiful talented wonderful and going places I cant even imagine.

That is the statement I shall carry with me forever

Todays simple win was having a wonderful salad for lunch with TOMATOES!

 I love this song its sooo great to work out to and just dance around the room. To all my Juliets out there lets check yes to a healither more upbeat life!

video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s1R_txIuuio

lyrics-

Check yes Juliet
Are you with me?
Rain is falling down on the sidewalk
I won’t go until you come outside.

Check yes Juliet
Kill the limbo
I’ll keep tossing rocks at your window
There’s no turning back for us tonight.

Lace up your shoes
Ay Oh Ay Ohhh
Here’s how we do:

Run, baby, run
Don’t ever look back.
They’ll tear us apart
If you give them the chance.
Don’t sell your heart.
Don’t say we’re not meant to be.
Run, baby, run.
Forever will be
You and me.

Check yes Juliet
I’ll be waiting
Wishing, wanting
Yours for the taking.
Just sneak out
And don’t tell a soul goodbye.

Check yes Juliet
Here’s the countdown
3… 2… 1… now fall in my arms now
They can change the locks
Don’t let them change your mind

Lace up your shoes
Ah Oh Ah Ohhh
Here’s how we do

Run, baby, run
Don’t ever look back
They’ll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don’t sell your heart
Don’t say we are not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever we’ll be
You and me

We’re flying through the night
We’re flying through the night
Way up high,
The view from here is getting better with
You by my side

Run baby run
Don’t ever look back
They’ll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don’t sell your heart
Don’t say we are not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be…

Run baby run
Don’t ever look back
They’ll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don’t sell your heart
Don’t say we are not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be
You and me
You and me
You and me