This is a really great hype song for working out. A lovely Florida bad the song is Homecoming from Hey Monday!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TUW6YjsRJ-Q

lyrics-

Homecoming, I’m coming
My sweet mistake
Summer’s over, hope it’s not too late
I’m pacing, impatient
Up in my head
Taken back to the sidewalk where we met

And carved out our names
Do you remember that?

I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Did you take off while I was gone?
I missed it all, I messed you up, I missed you
I’m coming home, I wanna know
When all the leaves begin to fall
If I’m falling, falling apart for you

Descending, I’m spinning
Lost all defense
How could you swallow me again?
I left you, I meant to
Couldn’t let you in
Never mind a single word I said

Carve out your name
Do you remember that?

I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Did you take off while I was gone?
I missed it all, I messed you up, I missed you.
I’m coming home, I wanna know
When all the leaves begin to fall
If I’m falling, falling apart

You’ve got control of me
Is this the end of me?
‘Cause I just can’t cut up the strings
I’m coming back for more
Don’t let your heart go
Please don’t walk away

Homecoming, I’m coming, I’m coming back

I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Did you take off while I was gone?
I missed it all, I messed you up, I missed you
I’m coming home, I wanna know
When all the leaves begin to fall
If I’m falling, falling apart
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Did you take off while I was gone?
I missed it all, I messed you up, I missed you.
I’m coming home, I wanna know
When all the leaves begin to fall
If I’m falling, falling apart

Hope everyone had an amazing weekend! Mine was filled with family, love and food but hey it’s all good I did a 5miles bike ride and played with my nephew on the swings/slide. Its cooler here finally so Im lovin the weather and lovin getting outside. I want a basketball hoop so bad though but I have to wait till my money comes in.

The week is finally here! Thursday I leave for a writers conviention with my good friend Carmen. I’m pretty excited about all the cool writing things Im going to learn. Learning is fun people! lol Except Spanish…not cool. Okay so some goals

M-W Goals

Work out at the gym at least 20mins cardio and 10mins weight training. Each Day

Record calories, not going over 2000.

Play guitar each day for at least 20mins (I’ve been not doing this because of how busy I am but its my me time and happy song writing time so I’m going to take it! Try to finish my new song about my siblings I want to sing it to my brother next week when I see him since it will be the last time I see him before he goes to Afganastan.)

Okay now while Im at the conviention here are my goals

If I have internet access record calories. Not going over 1800 a day unless they have a gym in that case I can go 2000. Or if its warm enough to use the pool.

Be very attentive to the speakers and take notes. Let it apply to my life.

Have fun with my friends not with the food!!

Okay so this song pumps me up everytime I hear it because I like to think I’m the trouble they are talking about. Its called Here Come Trouble from Honor Society! It really gets me pumped up in workouts!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5W3yzgVe9Qw

Lyrics-

She’s a pistol, pointed at me
Smoking from her head to her feet
Packing the heat
She’s lethal, with a license to kill
Her love is ripping up in the street
She’s a heart breaker, like a masterpiece
She could look even better than me
She’s the baddest girl I’ve ever seen
How could something that’s so wrong
Be exactly what I need?

Here comes trouble again
Better act carefully
She knows what she’s doing to me
She makes it look so easy
Here comes trouble again
My heart tells me to leave
But a girl like that’s on a different level
Here comes trouble, trouble

She’s a razor cutting me deep
Very, very rapid
She’s like a pistol, pointed at me
Smoking from her head to her feet
She’s a heart taker, double agent in heels
But I love the way she’s making me feel
She’s the baddest girl I’ve ever seen
So hard to walk away
With her hands all over me

Here comes trouble again
Better act carefully
She knows what she’s doing to me
She makes it look so easy
Here comes trouble again
My heart tells me to leave
But a girl like that’s on a different level
Here comes trouble

Yeah, she’s gaining on me
Faster and

She’s the baddest girl I’ve ever seen
Something that’s so wrong
Is exactly what I need, oh, oh

Here comes trouble again
Better act carefully
She knows what she’s doing to me
She makes it look so easy
Here comes trouble again
My heart tells me to leave
But a girl like that’s on a different level
Here comes trouble

So I was thinking today about all the negativity surrounding emotional eating. I am an emotional eater and will probably always be in one way or another. But what if instead of making it this horrible bad thing hanging over our heads and diet we turned it into a positive. I’ve decided I want to change my emotional eating not end it. So what if when I’m stressed or freaking out I want food. Whose to say its really un healthy. I think whats unhealthy about it is the foods I choose to eat emotional. If I could retrain my brain to trigger stress and think of apples or peppers or anything healthy I honestly dont see the problem. This is my new theory and I shall test it out over the next few months.

Song today …hmmm….its an oldie remade by the cast of the show Glee. This version is amazing, check it out for sure!!!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TUZwdbeS2mM

Lyrics-

Just a small town girl, livin in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south detroit
He took the midnight train goin anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night

Working hard to get my fill,
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin anything to roll the dice,
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

 I love these feelings. The high off of life for not real reason feeling. I am full though from McDonalds but I give myself one day a week to act up food wise and today is the day. I woke up today and for the first time in about a week I woke up and felt awake. Not like I was just walking through life half alive. I think my body has finally adjusted to the new sleep hours yay!  Next week is my first weight in! I’m pretty excited I think it will be a good one. I’m working really hard to keep within my calories and to work out. If I don’t make it to the gym I’m still dancing around my room like a crazy person lol and all the singing I’ve been doing has def been burning some calories. Can you believe I work up a sweat just from moving my diaphram so quickly for this one song I’m working on?

 I forgot to tell you ladies this but in a few week a group of my friends and I will be lanching our first ever website. It’s going to be a daily news focused on central florida but will have great info for people outside that area. Each day has a theme

Spiritual Sunday

Music Monday

Tabloid Tuesday

Whats Up Wed

Throw Back Thursday

Fitness Friday

Satire Saterday

Its going to be a lot of fun. Once its launched and ready I will make sure to link you girls ASAP. I’m pretty excited about this. Okay I’ve rambled on enough so I leave you with the song I was talking about!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_2rrxONlLo

Lyrics-

I gotta feeling that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x4)

Tonight’s the night night
Let’s live it up
I got my money
Let’s spend it up

Go out and smash it
like Oh My God
Jump off that sofa
Let’s get get OFF

I know that we’ll have a ball
if we get down
and go out
and just loose it all

I feel stressed out
I wanna let it go
Lets go way out spaced out
and loosing all control

Fill up my cup
Mazal tov
Look at her dancing
just take it off

Lets paint the town
We’ll shut it down
Let’s burn the roof
and then we’ll do it again

Lets Do it (x3)
and live it up

i gotta feeling that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x2)
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Tonight’s the night
let’s live it up
I got my money
Lets spend it up

Go out and smash it
Like Oh My God
Jump off that sofa
Lets get get OFF

Fill up my cup (Drink)
Mazal Tov (L’chaim)
Look at her dancing (Move it Move it)
Just take it off

Lets paint the town
We’ll shut it down
Lets burn the roof
and then we’ll do it again

lets do it (x3)
let’s live it up

Here we come
here we go
we gotta rock

Easy come
easy go
now we on top

Feel the shot
body rock
Rock it don’t stop

Round and round
up and down
around the clock

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday
Friday, Saturday, Saturday and Sunday

we keep keep keep keep on going
we know what we say
party everyday
party everyday

got a feeling
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good nighte

I cant wait for my student aid to be approved and come in so I can afford real groceries. lol.  So far so good. The work outs have been great. Hot guy working in the gym yay but I’ve only gone once this week. I’m about to go now again. But I have been dancing around the house like crazy. Lots of fun.

 This song is a fantastic upbeat make you feel good work out song. I lvoe dancing to this.

 Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=behBIZJ5kUY

Lyrics-

Let’s burn our dreams into the skyline
Tattoo our sweat and tears, forever you and I
Hold your breath till we cause the sun down
This is the moment time is racing, slow it down
‘Cause you, a feeling I can’t deny

We are only here for one more night
Scream it like you mean it
One more time
We’ll tear down the building
(C’mon, c’mon)
Sing along oh oh oh oh oh
(C’mon, c’mon)
Stay young

Let’s light the kerosene tonight
Spark up like fireworks
Exploding in the sky
Kick down the new year and the future
We can’t get closer here, the walls are falling down
‘Cause you, a feeling I can’t deny

We are only here for one more night
Scream it like you mean it
One more time
We’ll tear down the building
(C’mon, c’mon)
Sing along oh oh oh oh oh
(C’mon, c’mon)
Stay young

We’ll be holding onto this so tight
Scream it like you mean it
One more time
We’ll tear down the building
(C’mon, c’mon)
Sing along oh oh oh oh oh
(C’mon, c’mon)
Stay young

Till my breath
I’m alive
When we’re side by side
Now
This is dedicated to you

That does not taste as good as healthiness feels.

That going to be my control motto this month. I joined the school gym and I’ve been working out and doing great with it but my eating has just been a pitiful joke. I lost so much of my motivation. I’ve been avoiding this site because of that but then today I realized this site was such a big part of that motivation. You girls always make me feel so amazing and better. You let me know I’m not in this fight alone.

 Last year around this time I joined this site. I thought I’d be so much further by now but you know what instead of gaining more weight and falling deeper in the whole I lost over 20lbs and kept it off. And if I could do that every year I’d be extactic. I would love it. And I love myself for doing it.

The last few months my self esteem has been pretty much shattered between constantly not being able to find a job or not getting called back and dealing with realizing my ex best friend doesnt care anymore. I was thinking about it today realize how bad it is. I pretend its great, I can put on a front like the next person but its just not the same. I want to get back to that place I was at the beginning of this year. I think a lot of that had to do with my friends from this site.

This song reminds me of you ladies so much and our journey. Listen to it, its such a fantastic song. I love all of you and I’m ready to come back and rock the rest of this year. This is my dream and its so much easier with the gift of a friend like you!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VE0xYz2CUJs

Lyrics-

Sometimes you think you’ll be fine by yourself
‘Cause a dream is a wish that you make all alone
It’s easy to feel like you don’t need help
But it’s harder to walk on your own

You’ll change inside when you realize

The world comes to life and everything’s bright
From beginning to end when you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find the beauty you are
When you open your heart and believe in the gift of a friend
The gift of a friend

Someone who knows when you’re lost and you’re scared
And there through the highs and the lows
Someone you can count on, someone who cares
Beside you wherever you’ll go

You’ll change inside when you realize

The world comes to life and everything’s bright
From beginning to end when you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find the beauty you are
When you open your heart and believe in the gift of a friend

And when your hope crashes down
Shattering to the ground you, you feel all alone
When you don’t know which way to go
And there’s no signs leading you home, you’re not alone

The world comes to life and everything’s bright
From beginning to end when you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find the beauty you are
When you open your heart and believe in
When you believe in, when believe in the gift of a friend

On a more heart breaking note today is a very sad and emotional day for me and my family. I’ve just finished balling my eyes out watching the History Channel. I will never forget this day 8 years back. So my song today is important to me and the video is a real tribute to those who helped my family and many others across this country that day.

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oZIApwWq1AU&feature=PlayList&p=981C395C26D2C740&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=24

Lyrics-

If tomorrow all the things were gone,
I’d worked for all my life.
And I had to start again,
with just my children and my wife.

I’d thank my lucky stars,
to be livin here today.
‘Cause the flag still stands for freedom,
and they can’t take that away.

And I’m proud to be an American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.

And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.

From the lakes of Minnesota,
to the hills of Tennessee.
Across the plains of Texas,
From sea to shining sea.

From Detroit down to Houston,
and New York to L.A.
Well there’s pride in every American heart,
and its time we stand and say.

That I’m proud to be an American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.

And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.

And I’m proud to be and American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.

And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.

I also decided to check out over eaters annoumous. I have a good feeling about talking about my feelings :) We have like 4 meetings in town one of which is tonight. I just dont know though, if I want to go. I mean I know it cant hurt but…I guess I’m just nervous. Plus 3 of them are at chruchs…I dont mind that buttt I dont want religion pushed on me. I mean I love faith and seeing other peoples but Im happy in mine and dont want recruitment. Maybe I will ask my sister to go with me. I dont know!!! I shall decide.

So right now in this moment my entire life is up in the air. It could go anywhere. I’m excited by that fact and even if it goes no where and I get a local job for the school year I’m going to be applying early to loads of camps in Cali for next year so I get use to the West coast before I start UCLA next August. And make some good money. I’m pretty excited about life! I havent felt this way in awhile. I havent fully become motivated to get back into my new life sytle but I feel it coming. I’m right on the brink of it and my sleeping pattern is slowly correcting its self.  Life is so much more than a small ice cream shop on the beach. I use to stand at the window of and dreamed about the day I would be out there vacationing. Well that day has come and its here ready for me!

The song of today is about girls who kick butt! It seems like a negative song but for me its so positive! The chrous is the best cause we are ladies! The verses is the girl I USE to be but am not anymore. I’ve grown sooo much this last year. Im gonna x out the old me parts of the lyrics

 Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mGW_4jaawGY

Lyrics-

I’m in love with a girl I hate
She enjoys pointing out every bad thing about me
I’m in love with a critic and a skeptic, a traitor
I’d trade her in a second

She’s a backseat driver
A drama provider
An instant update of the world
She’s a first-class liar
A constant forgetter
She’s attractive but bitter

Did you scream enough to make her cry?
It’s a turn around
Turn around
Baby, don’t return to me
If you think that I’m not worth your time

She’s a lady
And ladies shouldn’t be messed with
She’s a lady
And ladies shouldn’t be messed with

Take off your shoes
Come in the room
And baby, let’s try not to argue
Turn out the lights
Turn on the radio
How can we fight when I’m too busy loving you?
I’m too busy loving you
I’m too busy loving you

Did you scream enough to make her cry?
It’s a turn around
Turn around
Baby, don’t return to me
If you think that I’m not worth your time

She’s a lady
And ladies shouldn’t be messed with
She’s a lady
And ladies shouldn’t be messed with

Here I am
There you go again, again
And we will not ever be 18 again
Again

And I’m worn out of fighting
And every night you leave crying
And I could use some time
Here I am
There you go again

So here I am, and I’m dying
And I’m waiting for you
Waiting for you
Come back, come back to me
And I’ll take you gladly
And I’ll take you anyway

Did you scream enough to make her cry?
It’s a turn around
Turn around
Baby, don’t return to me
If you think that I’m not worth your time

 Deep inside though I feel this is the best thing that could ever happen. Like a fire has gone off inside of me, liek Im completely free and I want to just lose the rest of this weight and write songs about this experience and show them all Im better than it. Like I am meant for so much more and I know this but Im stuck between the half empty and half full stage. My ego is also bruised like crazy. I’m going to need a little time before my strenght gets all the way up to take over the world again but I think working out iwll help it. I dont know why I left myself in that postion for so long but I’m thankful its over. I will miss my good coworkers and the job in genral which I loved dearly but this is only the beginnign and tomorrow is a beautiful new day. It’s time for a change. It’s time for my dreams. Its time to step up or go home. I’ve missed you ladies and love you. This is for all the underdogs out there

 ps so far this year I have changed/lost so much of my old life. Friends/jobs. A big change is on the verge of my life. I must just go with the flow of this life

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYqewR6KxOA

Lyrics-

She’s an underdog
Lives next door to me
She’s always heard you won’t amount to anything
And it kills me to watch the agony beyond her eyes
Tragic the way people pass her by
But now I realizeThat everyone sees her
But nobody knows her
She screams in her pillow
For a better tomorrow
She hates it
But she takes it
Watch out for that girl
One day she may change the world

That was when I realized I havent been giving this all Ive got. I mean I give myself a lot of credit for working out so much more than ever like craving it and needing it but I could and should have done so much better eating wise. I’m not tearing myself down Im just reflecting. I could do better and I plan on it. This no sugar thing is really helping open my eyes to all the much healthier options out there. More whole grains less white flour. More fruits less cakes. More splenda recepies less full on sugar ones. Im not saying I hsould cut it out forever, I just gotta find that happy medium. That happy place.

 I have sooo much time on my hands lately and Im wasting it in last nights of nothingness and sleeping in way later thna I should new rule is in bed by 1:30am no later and out of bed by 9:30 except on the weekends. Hopefully I will be working more at work soon and that will help. I have too much energy at nigth I need to be doing more during the day!

 Everything has been good Im not weighting myself anymore except on Fridays now too. Im goign to be a better buddy too! Goals I can obtain all of them. On the plus side I can feel my waist like forming again. Like the hour glass curve is there! So exciting!

 This is a fun high energy song hehe great to work out to!

 Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SOGBPckRQfI

Lyrics-

Hey girl, what’s your name I think I caught you looking my way
Do you wanna know how to get me all to your own
Weekends work the best I pick the place you do the rest
Hey now don’t be shy but you got to keep me in line
Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
But you made me believe

Kidnap my heart
Take me with you
Kidnap my heart
Make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Ain’t very far, not far from the start
Kidnap my heart.

Can you get me up more
Fun that I could ever dream of
Could you tie me down
Can you keep me hanging around
I don’t wanna be here to keep you company
Put your hand in mine got to hold on tight for the ride
Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
But you made me believe

Kidnap my heart
Take me with you
Kidnap my heart
Make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Ain’t very far, not far from the start
Kidnap my heart.

You’ve got to hold me tighter
Cause I’m a real fighter
Don’t tear us apart
Love at first sight never thought in could happen to me
But you made me believe

Kidnap my heart
Take me with you
Kidnap my heart
Make my dreams come true
Take me away cause falling in love
Ain’t very far, not far from the start
Kidnap my heart.