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Hey sorry I’ve been so MIA this week but school was kicking but a.s.s big time but NOW I’M ON SPRING BREAK!! and getting ready to head out to NYC saterday but before I go I will weigh in for sure. I can’t wait to see my progress. I have been good and havent checked all week. So excited for this week and getting ready for it.  Anyways will be doing my best to stay on track and the nyc streets will def get me a workout in. <3 you all! Keep up the amazing work. This song is for you ladies. Your my angels supporting me!

 video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dC06CMBQLM0

lyrics-

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they’re tumbling down
And they didn’t even put up a fight
They didn’t even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It’s like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin’
It’s the risk that I’m takin’
I ain’t never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace

You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You’re the only one that I want
Think I’m addicted to your light

I swore I’d never fall again
But this don’t even feel like falling
Gravity can’t forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I’ve been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin’
The risk that I’m takin’
I’m never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I’m looking now
I’m surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you’re my saving grace

You’re everything I need and more
It’s written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won’t fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Lost 4.2lbs!!! So happy about this. I hadnt checked the scale all week, not even a peek. It felt so great to see those numbers again. It also felt great because I didnt check all week so I had no real idea what I had lost.

Yesterday I was just having a really frusterated day. I wasnt going to go on my bike ride because of the concert but was like I need to destress so I’ll go 2.5miles then when I was on my bike I was thinking about The Biggest Loser and how they have the last chance workout. Well that was my last chance workout so I pushed through it and went the entire 5miles. I was really happy about that.

This week I didnt count calories down to every single calorie. I thought in terms of portion sizes. I did check the calories and make sure portions were good but I still got to eat the stuff I love. This really was good for me it didnt feel like that big of a change, just like I was thinking more. Not eating so emotionally. I thought yesterday as I was riding my bike how excited I was that instead of pigging out I was riding the bike. Guess maybe I can be one of those people who take my frustration out in a good workout form.

I’m totally motivated to lose another 2lbs before I leave to New York next Saterday morning! Keep going ladies we can do this!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4WxDesCYVmM

Lyrics-

Ay, lemme kick it to you right quick man
Not on some gangsta shit man on some real shit
Anybody who been through the same thing
I’m sure you feel the same way

Oh hey, I’ve been travelin’ on this road too long
Just tryin’ to find my way back home
But the old me’s dead and gone
Dead and gone
And oh hey, I’ve been travelin’ on this road too long
Just tryin’ to find my way back home
But the old me’s dead and gone
Dead and gone, dead and

Ever had one of them days wish you would have stayed home
Run into a group of niggas who gettin’ their hate on
You walk by, they get wrong, you reply then shit get blown
Way out of proportion way past discussion
Just you against them, pick one then rush them
Figure you get jumped here that’s next
They don’t wanna stop there now they bustin’

Now you gushin’, ambulance rushin’
You to the hospital with a bad concussion
Plus you hit four times but it hit yo spine
Paralyzed waist down and ya wheelchair bound
Never mind that now you lucky to be alive
Just thinkin’ it all started fussin’ wit three guys
Nigga pride in the way but your pride is the way you can fuck
Around get shot down any day

Niggas die everyday, all little bullshit
Dope money, dice games, ordinary hood shit
Could this be cuz of hip-hop music
Or did the ones with the good sense not use it?
Usually niggas don’t know what to do when they back against the wall
So they just start shootin’
For red or for blue or for blow I guess
From Bankhead at the old projects

No more stress, now I’m straight
Now I get it, now I take time to think
Before I make mistakes just for my family stake
That part of me left yesterday
The heart of me is strong today
No regrets I’m blessed to say the old me dead and gone away

Oh hey, I’ve been travelin’ on this road too long
Just tryin’ to find my way back home
But the old me’s dead and gone
Dead and gone
And oh hey, I’ve been travelin’ on this road too long
Just tryin’ to find my way back home
But the old me’s dead and gone
Dead and gone, dead and

I ain’t neva been scared, I live through tragic
Situations could been dead lookin’ back at it
Most of that shit didn’t even have to happen
But you don’t think about it when you out there trappin’
In the apartments hangin’, smokin’ and rappin’
Niggas start shit next thing we know we cappin’
Get locked up then didn’t even get mad
Now I think about that what a life I had

Most of that shit look back just laugh
Some shit still look back get sad
Thinkin’ my home boy still be around
Had I not hit the nigga in the mouth that time
I won that fight I lost that war
I could still see my nigga walkin’ out that door
Who would of thought I’d never see Philant no more
Got enough dead homies I don’t want no more

Cuz a nigga his jump cost me more
I’d a took that ass whoopin’ out for sure
Now think before I risk my life
Take them chances to get my stripes
A nigga put his hands on me alright
Otherwise stand there talk shit all night
Cuz I hit you and you sue me
I shoot you get locked up poor me

No more stress now I’m straight
Now I get it now I take time to think
Before I make mistake just for my family stake
That part of me left yesterday
The heart of me is strong today
No regrets I’m blessed to say the old me dead and gone away

Oh hey, I’ve been travelin’ on this road too long
Just tryin’ to find my way back home
But the old me’s dead and gone
Dead and gone
And oh hey, I’ve been travelin’ on this road too long
Just tryin’ to find my way back home
But the old me’s dead and gone
Dead and gone

I turn my head to the east, I don’t see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west, still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride
That old me’s dead and gone but the new me will be alright
I turn my head to the east, I don’t see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west, still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride
That old me’s dead and gone but the new me will be alright, ’cause

Today was a very good day for me. I spent a lot of it with my neice. We went for a picnic and then later played soccer (which I now love and is going in the weekly workout rotation) I love so much being outside. As we sat on our blanket by the lake I thought to myself how I never wanted to be the type of mom who doesnt play with her child. Who doesnt teach them to go outside and enjoy it. And I never will.

So tomorrow nights exciting I’m going to a Taylor Swift concert woohoo. Then a busy week lies ahead but at 1:30 on Thursday I am offically on spring break so Saterday I fly to NYC for a conference at the paper then come back on thursday. Friday I go across the state to do a music review then saterday another part of the state for another interview then I get to lay out enjoying my spring break before a concert with one of my fav bands. This month will be epic and I will enjoy myself without over enjoying myself as I did our last conference.

I have learned my families eating habits are going to make me stronger because I am learning to portion control and the real moderation effect. I was going to weight myself tomorrow but I shall wait and see till saterday after all the butt shaking I’ll be doing at the concert tomorrow.

Anyways loves hope your all doing wonderful. I’m here if ever you need me just shoot over a message! This song is so country but so true. You’ve got to stand for something or you’ll fall for anything!

video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z_s-Qk07KxA

lyrics-

Now Daddy didn’t like trouble, but if it came along
Everyone that knew him knew which side that he’d be on
He never was a hero, or this county’s shinin’ light
But you could always find him standing up
For what he thought was right

He’d say you’ve got to stand for something or you’ll fall for anything
You’ve got to be your own man not a puppet on a string
Never compromise what’s right and uphold your family name
You’ve got to stand for something or you’ll fall for anything

Now we might have been better off or owned a bigger house
If Daddy had done more givin’ in or a little more backing down
But we always had plenty just living his advice
Whatever you do today you’ll have to sleep with tonight

He’d say you’ve got to stand for something or you’ll fall for anything
You’ve got to be your own man not a puppet on a string
Never compromise what’s right and uphold your family name
You’ve got to stand for something or you’ll fall for anything

Now I know that things are different than they were in Daddy’s days
But I still believe what makes a man really hasn’t changed

You’ve got to stand for something or you’ll fall for anything
You’ve got to be your own man not a puppet on a string
Never compromise what’s right and uphold your family name
You’ve got to stand for something or you’ll fall for anything

You’ve got to stand for something or you’ll fall for anything

      Today’s my day off from the website so I figured I would blog here. The last two days have been amazing. I’ve been recording my food intake every day. Both days I went on great 5 mile bike rides. Yesterday the wind was crazy and really made my bike ride a serious workout. I really want to get on the scale and check my progress but no way. I’m waiting until Saterday!

      So I was thinking about dreams. In terms of my dreams. My biggest problem is when I dream I dream skinny as in I’m always skinny in my dreams so mentally I only think I can accomplism my dreams by being at a healthy weight. This is a terrible way to think but its also helping drive me. Does anyone else dream skinny?

     I need to add more veggie to my lifestyle. I will work on that more next week, this week lots of fruits and whole grains is my focus. I need to go get ready for my day. Hope all of you out there are doing good. I really was inspired by this song. It has helped me get over all the people who stabbed me in the back last year.

UPDATE! My sister in law just brought me lunch home KFC she got me a twister crispy chicken wrap (590calories) Poetatoe wedges (160cals) and a pepsi(150)  I was like oh crap, but instead of being liek I don’t want to waste this I’ll eat all of it I compromised. I ate half the wedges giving the rest to my neice, drank 1/3 of the soda then got rid of it and took the wrap off and scraped as much sauce off as I could. So I have a delicous meal (thought I would not have if she didnt bring it cuz of the sodium and fat in it) the meal once fixed came out to somewhere around 400-450 calories. I’m proud of seeing the “in moderation” goodness of this meal. I can have the good things I like too just not all together.

video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jyoDfzif9s

lyrics-

I’m counting the days since I began to live without you
I’m covered in rain but it feels just like it’s the sun
And it don’t get me down, don’t come around
You’re better off leaving town, I’m fine here alone now without you

Hey! I’m screaming at you, hey! Don’t care enough to
Write you a letter now that I’m doing better alone
Hey! I’m screaming at you, hey! Don’t care enough to
Write you a letter now that I’m doing better
Better off without you

You’re stuck in a world and make believe that I can see it
I gave it a chance, she must be crazy not to leave
You’re never gonna bring me down, don’t come around
You’re better off leaving town, I’m fine here alone now without you

Hey! I’m screaming at you, hey! Don’t care enough to
Write you a letter now that I’m doing better alone
Hey! I’m screaming at you, hey! Don’t care enough to
Write you a letter now that I’m doing better
Better off without you

Giving it up, now you take it away
All of my time, now get out of my way
Never meant much to anyone, it’s me they want, without you I’m the same
So hear me now screaming out your name

(Screaming out, screaming out your name)
(Better off without you)

Hey! I’m screaming at you, hey! Don’t care enough to
Write you a letter now that I’m doing better alone
Hey! I’m screaming at you, hey! Don’t care enough to
Write you a letter now that I’m doing better
Better off without you

Better off without you
‘Cause I’m better off without you

I’m screaming at you, hey! Don’t care enough to
Write you a letter now that I’m doing better
Better off without you

here’s my S.M.A.R.T plan

S.M.A.R.T

S- set a goal = I want to lose 85Lbs total

M- measurable = I want to lost 2.5lbs a week

A- action = I will be active at least 30mins every day. I will between 1600-2100 calories everyday with no one meal being more than 500 except Saterdays when I will allow myself one free meal. I will blog here/reply to others blogs at least 4 days a week,

R- realistic = I will not beat myself up if everytime I do not hit my goal and I will not stop trying so hard if I pass it each week easily. It’s an everyday experience.

T- time = I will reach this goal by Halloween 2010. I checked the weeks with my weekly goal and its completely possible. I can do this.

 This is my S.M.A.R.T plan so what’s yours? More info on the plan on my site at

www.SunnySideUpDaily.com

This song in my mind I’ve changed it from a love song to a life song. The place I don’t want to go back to is the unhealthy person I was. And I want the motivation to be a better person to come in with the rain. lol I’m a dork I’m aware. Have a good day loves! 

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PxHGzVaQc2o

Lyrics-

I could go back to every laugh,
But I don’t wanna go there anymore,
And I know all the steps up to your door,
But I don’t wanna go there anymore.

Talk to the wind, talk to the sky,
Talk to the man with the reasons why,
And let me know what you find.

I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cause I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I could stand up and sing you a song,
But I don’t wanna have to go that far.
And I, I’ve got you down,
I know you by heart,
And you don’t even know where I start.

Talk to yourself, talk to the tears,
Talk to the man who put you here,
And don’t wait for the sky to clear.

I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cause I’m too tired at night to call your name.
Oh, just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I’ve watched you so long,
Screamed your name,
I don’t know what else I can say.

But I’ll leave my window open,
‘Cause I’m too tired at night for all these games.
Just know I’m right here hopin’,
That you’ll come in with the rain.

I could go back to every laugh,
But I don’t wanna go there anymore.

I wrote two articles for my website the last few days. One I just finished on quitting smoking using my own personal experience with the struggle. It can be read Here As I was writing I realized how proud of myself I was then I realize I quit smoking so I know I can stop binge eating. I have proven myself with challenges and vices before so I know I can now! It gave much such inspiration. Tomorrow I will start using these techniques for my binge eating too.

I also wrote an article on the Oylmpics and how they train. Most of the use the S.M.A.R.T program which is explained on the site Here I’m not trying to force you girls to my site just easier than retyping it all. Anyways. So I decided tomorrow I’m going to put my S.M.A.R.T program into effect. I believe in me!

I love this song because it reminds me to lovem yself and always be true regardless of what people think about me. And its fun to dance around my room to lol.

Also on the www.sunnysideupdaily.com I posted some yummy healthy desert recipes and a bunch of other fun stuff liek horoscopes.

video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRVrUZXxi6g
lyrics-
My hair’s a wreck
Mascara runs
My feet get dirty
And my skin burns in the sun.
My lips they bleed
But I still sing my songs.
Takes me a minute
To admit it when I’m wrong.

Pretty is as pretty does,
But pretty’s not my thing.

This is what you get.
This is who I am.
Take me now or leave me
Any way you can.
Sometimes I trip and fall
But I know where I stand.
And if you’re thinking about changing my direction,
Don’t mess with imperfection.

My back is weak,
But my will is true.
Got good intentions
But I never follow through.
I say too much,
And don’t know when to leave.
In case you’re looking,
That’s my heart there on my sleeve.

Ego trips and stupid slip ups,
I’m a mess but

This is what you get.
This is who I am.
Take me now or leave me
Any way you can.
Sometimes I trip and fall
But I know where I stand.
And if you’re thinking about changing my direction,
Don’t mess with imperfection.

Scratched and bruised,
A little used,
But baby I work fine.
You might call me
Damaged goods,
But I’m one of a kind.

My hair’s a wreck,
No I’m not perfect
But I’m not the only one.

This is what you get.
This is who I am.
Take me now or leave me
Any way you can.
Sometimes I trip and fall
But I know where I stand.
And if you’re thinking about changing my direction,
Don’t mess with imperfection.
This is who I am.
After if you’re thinking about changing my direction,
Don’t mess with imperfection.

      So the last month has been pretty stressful for no reason at all. Well a lot of day to day stuff but I’ve been letting myself get to myself. The last few weeks/months somethings going on. Like I keep feeling I’m not good enough for anything. I feel I will never be anything unless I lose this weight and my emotional eating has gotten bad again. I need a good community behind me again. When I was here and on a team and blogging once a day I was doing so amazing I was so close to that girl I wanted to be. The one who instead of eating a bunch of crap when upset I got up, got out and worked out. I need to back track to that person. To that place. I need to work at it and stop giving up on myself. I know I can do it. I know I can make it happen I just need to start being the person I want to be. I’ve dont it before and I know I could do it again! So I am going to stop making my day to day journey seem like the hardest thing in the world. Take 4 classes and being an editor on the paper is NOT that stressful/taking all my time. I’m better than this.

    On the bright side the website is doing amazing. I’ve really been enjoying this. The promotion is taking a lot of time but its worth it to me. It’s writing, what I love to do. Anyways if your reading this and still on my side I love you all! This songs amazing check it out!!!And don’t forget to check out the site at www.sunnysideupdaily.com

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FFcBaAgMhss

 Lyrics-

There is a time for everyone
Where they decide who they’ll become
The leap of faith where fights are won
I know I’m not the only one
It’s a long way up
But I won’t stopI’ll sing for the broken hearted
I’ll sing for the dreams that won’t come true
And the music won’t stop playing
Tonight I sing for youI’ll dream about the place we started
Hold on to the past we can’t undo
The music kept on playin’
Now tonight I sing for you
Sing for youI may be far but you’re not alone
I won’t be safe till I come home
You’re in my heart
And you’re in my soul

I’ll sing for the broken-hearted
I’ll sing for the dreams that won’t come true
The music won’t stop playing
Tonight I sing for you

I’ll dream about the place we started
Hold on to the past I can’t undo
The music kept on playin’
Now tonight I sing for you

I’ll sing for the ones who have fallen
I’ll sing when there’s nothing left to lose
I know that they’re your dreams too
And I’ll sing it all for you
I’ll dream about the place we started
Hold on to the past I can’t undo
But the music kept on playin’
Now tonight we sing for you

I’ve been soooo busy with school and the paper and the blog this week but I’m doing great! Love all my ladies! Starting Monday I plan on posting my daily intakes again. But some great posts are up today and everyday on the site so check it out and comment stuff you like! <3 http://www.sunnysideupdaily.com/ Next post will have a fantastic song I promise!!!!

hey girls I just wrote a very honest post about dreams and life on the website I thought I would share with you ladies. Go down to the honesty corner and check it out! http://www.sunnysideupdaily.com/ It came from the heart.

I actually don’t wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy. That might be because I don’t brush my teeth with a bottle of jack. Anyways I’m back I’ve been gone for the last month hanging with my family and enjoying life. (Minus I was sick 3 times)

Anyways back to reality right? Right. So just started back to school about to renew my gym membership then more gym time but I’ve been enjoying natural ways of getting excersize lots of walking around and loving the outside. My eating wasnt on point while on the road but proud to say it wasnt bad. Just made a plan and stocked my fridge full of veggies. So I’m ready to go back in fighting. Missed you all <3!! Oh and I started a new website each day has a different theme today is fitness friday! www.sunnysideupdaily.com

 I have a FANTASTIC work out song for you! I love this song while in the gym sooo much right now. And the video is really cute too.

video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_YR4dKArgo

lyrics-

How you choose to express yourself
It’s all your own and I can tell
It comes naturally, it comes naturally

You follow what you feel inside
It’s intuitive, you don’t have to try
It comes naturally, mmmm it comes naturally

And it takes my breath away
What you do, so naturally

You are the thunder and I am the lightning
And I love the way you know who you are
And to me it’s exciting
When you know it’s meant to be
Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally
When you’re with me, baby

Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally
Bay bay baby

You have a way of moving me
A force of nature, your energy
It comes naturally (You know it does)
It comes naturally
Mmmm yeah

And it takes my breath away (Everytime)
What you do, so naturally

You are the thunder and I am the lightning
And I love the way you know who you are
And to me it’s exciting
When you know it’s meant to be
Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally
When you’re with me, baby

Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally
Bay bay baby

When we collide, sparks fly
When you look in my eyes, it takes my breath away

You are the thunder and I am the lightning
And I love the way you know who you are
And to me it’s exciting
When you know it’s meant to be
Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally
When you’re with me, baby

Everything comes naturally, it comes naturally
Bay bay baby

(Naturally)
Naturally x5
Bay bay baby