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I just wrote a blog then lost it lol lets try this again

That does not taste as good as healthiness feels.

That going to be my control motto this month. I joined the school gym and I’ve been working out and doing great with it but my eating has just been a pitiful joke. I lost so much of my motivation. I’ve been avoiding this site because of that but then today I realized this site was such a big part of that motivation. You girls always make me feel so amazing and better. You let me know I’m not in this fight alone.

 Last year around this time I joined this site. I thought I’d be so much further by now but you know what instead of gaining more weight and falling deeper in the whole I lost over 20lbs and kept it off. And if I could do that every year I’d be extactic. I would love it. And I love myself for doing it.

The last few months my self esteem has been pretty much shattered between constantly not being able to find a job or not getting called back and dealing with realizing my ex best friend doesnt care anymore. I was thinking about it today realize how bad it is. I pretend its great, I can put on a front like the next person but its just not the same. I want to get back to that place I was at the beginning of this year. I think a lot of that had to do with my friends from this site.

This song reminds me of you ladies so much and our journey. Listen to it, its such a fantastic song. I love all of you and I’m ready to come back and rock the rest of this year. This is my dream and its so much easier with the gift of a friend like you!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VE0xYz2CUJs

Lyrics-

Sometimes you think you’ll be fine by yourself
‘Cause a dream is a wish that you make all alone
It’s easy to feel like you don’t need help
But it’s harder to walk on your own

You’ll change inside when you realize

The world comes to life and everything’s bright
From beginning to end when you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find the beauty you are
When you open your heart and believe in the gift of a friend
The gift of a friend

Someone who knows when you’re lost and you’re scared
And there through the highs and the lows
Someone you can count on, someone who cares
Beside you wherever you’ll go

You’ll change inside when you realize

The world comes to life and everything’s bright
From beginning to end when you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find the beauty you are
When you open your heart and believe in the gift of a friend

And when your hope crashes down
Shattering to the ground you, you feel all alone
When you don’t know which way to go
And there’s no signs leading you home, you’re not alone

The world comes to life and everything’s bright
From beginning to end when you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find the beauty you are
When you open your heart and believe in
When you believe in, when believe in the gift of a friend