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I had a fantastic time at the convention. More so than I honestly thought I would. I didnt stay within my calories but I didnt go too far out of the relm I didnt over do it. I had fun with my friends and not the food for sure. I made a lot of new friends and had a great time! Only bad thing I guess well not bad but eye opening, the first night everyone was out in this feild playing man hunt (which was kind of stupid because there was 40 of us and we each only knew roughly 5 people there so we had no idea who was on whose team lol) anyways to split into teams they picked. I got picked last, I was kind of tipsy lol but it was like middle school all over again. The next bigger convention is in NY in Marchish and I want to lose 50lbs by then or get under 200 by then. I know I will feel much more confident even though I was really out going and had a lot of networking. Got a lot of peoples information and learned a lot through the lectures. My friend Carmen and my sister are going to join in on it. I mean I’ve been working out with my sister but now I’m more dedicated. I feel so happy. Anyways I need to go ahead and get ready for bed lol. Night everyone!

This is a really great hype song for working out. A lovely Florida bad the song is Homecoming from Hey Monday!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TUW6YjsRJ-Q

lyrics-

Homecoming, I’m coming
My sweet mistake
Summer’s over, hope it’s not too late
I’m pacing, impatient
Up in my head
Taken back to the sidewalk where we met

And carved out our names
Do you remember that?

I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Did you take off while I was gone?
I missed it all, I messed you up, I missed you
I’m coming home, I wanna know
When all the leaves begin to fall
If I’m falling, falling apart for you

Descending, I’m spinning
Lost all defense
How could you swallow me again?
I left you, I meant to
Couldn’t let you in
Never mind a single word I said

Carve out your name
Do you remember that?

I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Did you take off while I was gone?
I missed it all, I messed you up, I missed you.
I’m coming home, I wanna know
When all the leaves begin to fall
If I’m falling, falling apart

You’ve got control of me
Is this the end of me?
‘Cause I just can’t cut up the strings
I’m coming back for more
Don’t let your heart go
Please don’t walk away

Homecoming, I’m coming, I’m coming back

I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Did you take off while I was gone?
I missed it all, I messed you up, I missed you
I’m coming home, I wanna know
When all the leaves begin to fall
If I’m falling, falling apart
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Did you take off while I was gone?
I missed it all, I messed you up, I missed you.
I’m coming home, I wanna know
When all the leaves begin to fall
If I’m falling, falling apart

Quick post about whats up coming in my week. And goals of course.

Hope everyone had an amazing weekend! Mine was filled with family, love and food but hey it’s all good I did a 5miles bike ride and played with my nephew on the swings/slide. Its cooler here finally so Im lovin the weather and lovin getting outside. I want a basketball hoop so bad though but I have to wait till my money comes in.

The week is finally here! Thursday I leave for a writers conviention with my good friend Carmen. I’m pretty excited about all the cool writing things Im going to learn. Learning is fun people! lol Except Spanish…not cool. Okay so some goals

M-W Goals

Work out at the gym at least 20mins cardio and 10mins weight training. Each Day

Record calories, not going over 2000.

Play guitar each day for at least 20mins (I’ve been not doing this because of how busy I am but its my me time and happy song writing time so I’m going to take it! Try to finish my new song about my siblings I want to sing it to my brother next week when I see him since it will be the last time I see him before he goes to Afganastan.)

Okay now while Im at the conviention here are my goals

If I have internet access record calories. Not going over 1800 a day unless they have a gym in that case I can go 2000. Or if its warm enough to use the pool.

Be very attentive to the speakers and take notes. Let it apply to my life.

Have fun with my friends not with the food!!

Okay so this song pumps me up everytime I hear it because I like to think I’m the trouble they are talking about. Its called Here Come Trouble from Honor Society! It really gets me pumped up in workouts!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5W3yzgVe9Qw

Lyrics-

She’s a pistol, pointed at me
Smoking from her head to her feet
Packing the heat
She’s lethal, with a license to kill
Her love is ripping up in the street
She’s a heart breaker, like a masterpiece
She could look even better than me
She’s the baddest girl I’ve ever seen
How could something that’s so wrong
Be exactly what I need?

Here comes trouble again
Better act carefully
She knows what she’s doing to me
She makes it look so easy
Here comes trouble again
My heart tells me to leave
But a girl like that’s on a different level
Here comes trouble, trouble

She’s a razor cutting me deep
Very, very rapid
She’s like a pistol, pointed at me
Smoking from her head to her feet
She’s a heart taker, double agent in heels
But I love the way she’s making me feel
She’s the baddest girl I’ve ever seen
So hard to walk away
With her hands all over me

Here comes trouble again
Better act carefully
She knows what she’s doing to me
She makes it look so easy
Here comes trouble again
My heart tells me to leave
But a girl like that’s on a different level
Here comes trouble

Yeah, she’s gaining on me
Faster and

She’s the baddest girl I’ve ever seen
Something that’s so wrong
Is exactly what I need, oh, oh

Here comes trouble again
Better act carefully
She knows what she’s doing to me
She makes it look so easy
Here comes trouble again
My heart tells me to leave
But a girl like that’s on a different level
Here comes trouble

Yay I weighted in today and lost 3lbs!! woohoo! I’m going to make this quick. Had an interview at Best Buy today. Interviewers were hot one in perticular lol. Anyways I havent been working out at much as I’d like. I learned some more about the weights at our gym today and did some weight training. Feeling pretty good about life.

So I was thinking today about all the negativity surrounding emotional eating. I am an emotional eater and will probably always be in one way or another. But what if instead of making it this horrible bad thing hanging over our heads and diet we turned it into a positive. I’ve decided I want to change my emotional eating not end it. So what if when I’m stressed or freaking out I want food. Whose to say its really un healthy. I think whats unhealthy about it is the foods I choose to eat emotional. If I could retrain my brain to trigger stress and think of apples or peppers or anything healthy I honestly dont see the problem. This is my new theory and I shall test it out over the next few months.

Song today …hmmm….its an oldie remade by the cast of the show Glee. This version is amazing, check it out for sure!!!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TUZwdbeS2mM

Lyrics-

Just a small town girl, livin in a lonely world
She took the midnight train goin anywhere
Just a city boy, born and raised in south detroit
He took the midnight train goin anywhere

A singer in a smokey room
A smell of wine and cheap perfume
For a smile they can share the night
It goes on and on and on and on

Strangers waiting, up and down the boulevard
Their shadows searching in the night
Streetlight people, living just to find emotion
Hiding, somewhere in the night

Working hard to get my fill,
Everybody wants a thrill
Payin anything to roll the dice,
Just one more time
Some will win, some will lose
Some were born to sing the blues
Oh, the movie never ends
It goes on and on and on and on

Nothing will ever be as funny as hearing my sister yelling at my neice not to stick things in the toliet. I’m sitting here cracking up imagining her just looking up all innocent like “What did I do that?” That was me as a child for sure. I was daddys little angel and I still am. Life is great, vodka is good and people are crazy. Not that I ever drink anymore. I have just been having an amazing time with life the last few hours. That song I’ve Got A Feeling from Black Eye Peas has just lifted my mood and made me dance all around. I’m a little behind on my work but its not getting to me at all because I know I will make it and it will all turn out great!

 I love these feelings. The high off of life for not real reason feeling. I am full though from McDonalds but I give myself one day a week to act up food wise and today is the day. I woke up today and for the first time in about a week I woke up and felt awake. Not like I was just walking through life half alive. I think my body has finally adjusted to the new sleep hours yay!  Next week is my first weight in! I’m pretty excited I think it will be a good one. I’m working really hard to keep within my calories and to work out. If I don’t make it to the gym I’m still dancing around my room like a crazy person lol and all the singing I’ve been doing has def been burning some calories. Can you believe I work up a sweat just from moving my diaphram so quickly for this one song I’m working on?

 I forgot to tell you ladies this but in a few week a group of my friends and I will be lanching our first ever website. It’s going to be a daily news focused on central florida but will have great info for people outside that area. Each day has a theme

Spiritual Sunday

Music Monday

Tabloid Tuesday

Whats Up Wed

Throw Back Thursday

Fitness Friday

Satire Saterday

Its going to be a lot of fun. Once its launched and ready I will make sure to link you girls ASAP. I’m pretty excited about this. Okay I’ve rambled on enough so I leave you with the song I was talking about!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f_2rrxONlLo

Lyrics-

I gotta feeling that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x4)

Tonight’s the night night
Let’s live it up
I got my money
Let’s spend it up

Go out and smash it
like Oh My God
Jump off that sofa
Let’s get get OFF

I know that we’ll have a ball
if we get down
and go out
and just loose it all

I feel stressed out
I wanna let it go
Lets go way out spaced out
and loosing all control

Fill up my cup
Mazal tov
Look at her dancing
just take it off

Lets paint the town
We’ll shut it down
Let’s burn the roof
and then we’ll do it again

Lets Do it (x3)
and live it up

i gotta feeling that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good night (x2)
www.musicloversgroup.com

Tonight’s the night
let’s live it up
I got my money
Lets spend it up

Go out and smash it
Like Oh My God
Jump off that sofa
Lets get get OFF

Fill up my cup (Drink)
Mazal Tov (L’chaim)
Look at her dancing (Move it Move it)
Just take it off

Lets paint the town
We’ll shut it down
Lets burn the roof
and then we’ll do it again

lets do it (x3)
let’s live it up

Here we come
here we go
we gotta rock

Easy come
easy go
now we on top

Feel the shot
body rock
Rock it don’t stop

Round and round
up and down
around the clock

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday
Friday, Saturday, Saturday and Sunday

we keep keep keep keep on going
we know what we say
party everyday
party everyday

got a feeling
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good night
that tonight’s gonna be a good good nighte

So far this week has been great. Keeping it under 2,000 each day. I’ve been having way too many carbs though. Need more veggies and protein but over all very good. I’ve been tracking them everyday too which is great. The week has been very stressful and next week might be crazier I have 2 articles due for the paper, 2 tests and one presentation. I can make it though. Well planned out.

I cant wait for my student aid to be approved and come in so I can afford real groceries. lol.  So far so good. The work outs have been great. Hot guy working in the gym yay but I’ve only gone once this week. I’m about to go now again. But I have been dancing around the house like crazy. Lots of fun.

 This song is a fantastic upbeat make you feel good work out song. I lvoe dancing to this.

 Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=behBIZJ5kUY

Lyrics-

Let’s burn our dreams into the skyline
Tattoo our sweat and tears, forever you and I
Hold your breath till we cause the sun down
This is the moment time is racing, slow it down
‘Cause you, a feeling I can’t deny

We are only here for one more night
Scream it like you mean it
One more time
We’ll tear down the building
(C’mon, c’mon)
Sing along oh oh oh oh oh
(C’mon, c’mon)
Stay young

Let’s light the kerosene tonight
Spark up like fireworks
Exploding in the sky
Kick down the new year and the future
We can’t get closer here, the walls are falling down
‘Cause you, a feeling I can’t deny

We are only here for one more night
Scream it like you mean it
One more time
We’ll tear down the building
(C’mon, c’mon)
Sing along oh oh oh oh oh
(C’mon, c’mon)
Stay young

We’ll be holding onto this so tight
Scream it like you mean it
One more time
We’ll tear down the building
(C’mon, c’mon)
Sing along oh oh oh oh oh
(C’mon, c’mon)
Stay young

Till my breath
I’m alive
When we’re side by side
Now
This is dedicated to you

I just wrote a blog then lost it lol lets try this again

That does not taste as good as healthiness feels.

That going to be my control motto this month. I joined the school gym and I’ve been working out and doing great with it but my eating has just been a pitiful joke. I lost so much of my motivation. I’ve been avoiding this site because of that but then today I realized this site was such a big part of that motivation. You girls always make me feel so amazing and better. You let me know I’m not in this fight alone.

 Last year around this time I joined this site. I thought I’d be so much further by now but you know what instead of gaining more weight and falling deeper in the whole I lost over 20lbs and kept it off. And if I could do that every year I’d be extactic. I would love it. And I love myself for doing it.

The last few months my self esteem has been pretty much shattered between constantly not being able to find a job or not getting called back and dealing with realizing my ex best friend doesnt care anymore. I was thinking about it today realize how bad it is. I pretend its great, I can put on a front like the next person but its just not the same. I want to get back to that place I was at the beginning of this year. I think a lot of that had to do with my friends from this site.

This song reminds me of you ladies so much and our journey. Listen to it, its such a fantastic song. I love all of you and I’m ready to come back and rock the rest of this year. This is my dream and its so much easier with the gift of a friend like you!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VE0xYz2CUJs

Lyrics-

Sometimes you think you’ll be fine by yourself
‘Cause a dream is a wish that you make all alone
It’s easy to feel like you don’t need help
But it’s harder to walk on your own

You’ll change inside when you realize

The world comes to life and everything’s bright
From beginning to end when you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find the beauty you are
When you open your heart and believe in the gift of a friend
The gift of a friend

Someone who knows when you’re lost and you’re scared
And there through the highs and the lows
Someone you can count on, someone who cares
Beside you wherever you’ll go

You’ll change inside when you realize

The world comes to life and everything’s bright
From beginning to end when you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find the beauty you are
When you open your heart and believe in the gift of a friend

And when your hope crashes down
Shattering to the ground you, you feel all alone
When you don’t know which way to go
And there’s no signs leading you home, you’re not alone

The world comes to life and everything’s bright
From beginning to end when you have a friend by your side
That helps you to find the beauty you are
When you open your heart and believe in
When you believe in, when believe in the gift of a friend