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I am doing a lot better minus my still not getting back on my bike yesterday but today that will change. I’m going to ride my bike to walmart. So yesterday I went a little crazy and applied all over this country for Camp Counsilor postions all over. I realized a one way flight wouldnt be that expensive. It’s really great money, great teachign experience, I’m out doors a lot. It gets me out of this town for awhile. The best idea ever but I am applying pretty late so lets cross our fingers.

I also decided to check out over eaters annoumous. I have a good feeling about talking about my feelings :) We have like 4 meetings in town one of which is tonight. I just dont know though, if I want to go. I mean I know it cant hurt but…I guess I’m just nervous. Plus 3 of them are at chruchs…I dont mind that buttt I dont want religion pushed on me. I mean I love faith and seeing other peoples but Im happy in mine and dont want recruitment. Maybe I will ask my sister to go with me. I dont know!!! I shall decide.

So right now in this moment my entire life is up in the air. It could go anywhere. I’m excited by that fact and even if it goes no where and I get a local job for the school year I’m going to be applying early to loads of camps in Cali for next year so I get use to the West coast before I start UCLA next August. And make some good money. I’m pretty excited about life! I havent felt this way in awhile. I havent fully become motivated to get back into my new life sytle but I feel it coming. I’m right on the brink of it and my sleeping pattern is slowly correcting its self.  Life is so much more than a small ice cream shop on the beach. I use to stand at the window of and dreamed about the day I would be out there vacationing. Well that day has come and its here ready for me!

The song of today is about girls who kick butt! It seems like a negative song but for me its so positive! The chrous is the best cause we are ladies! The verses is the girl I USE to be but am not anymore. I’ve grown sooo much this last year. Im gonna x out the old me parts of the lyrics

 Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mGW_4jaawGY

Lyrics-

I’m in love with a girl I hate
She enjoys pointing out every bad thing about me
I’m in love with a critic and a skeptic, a traitor
I’d trade her in a second

She’s a backseat driver
A drama provider
An instant update of the world
She’s a first-class liar
A constant forgetter
She’s attractive but bitter

Did you scream enough to make her cry?
It’s a turn around
Turn around
Baby, don’t return to me
If you think that I’m not worth your time

She’s a lady
And ladies shouldn’t be messed with
She’s a lady
And ladies shouldn’t be messed with

Take off your shoes
Come in the room
And baby, let’s try not to argue
Turn out the lights
Turn on the radio
How can we fight when I’m too busy loving you?
I’m too busy loving you
I’m too busy loving you

Did you scream enough to make her cry?
It’s a turn around
Turn around
Baby, don’t return to me
If you think that I’m not worth your time

She’s a lady
And ladies shouldn’t be messed with
She’s a lady
And ladies shouldn’t be messed with

Here I am
There you go again, again
And we will not ever be 18 again
Again

And I’m worn out of fighting
And every night you leave crying
And I could use some time
Here I am
There you go again

So here I am, and I’m dying
And I’m waiting for you
Waiting for you
Come back, come back to me
And I’ll take you gladly
And I’ll take you anyway

Did you scream enough to make her cry?
It’s a turn around
Turn around
Baby, don’t return to me
If you think that I’m not worth your time