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My Simple Win was taking care of myself without even realizing it. I just was liek Im stressed out I should go work out then eat something light…2months ago I would have said Im stressed out I should go sit down and pig out. Were a changing girls one simple win at a time!

Panter girls ignore this paragraph its a copy/paste. Sorry I have been MIA busy week lots a tests in school but Im handing it. The stress almost ate me alive tuesday but I managed and did not eat my feelings! Im down another lb!! WOOHOO. It’s a start and maybe next week will be 2lbs again like before. I have been working out too I worked out 3x’s this week thust far and still have 2 more days to go. I tried/invented a new way to play tennis last night lol. I jogging in place while the ball is in action. It improved me game and gets my heart rate up! It was sooo much fun.

I have been eating in moderation again. This week another amazing thing happened. I got my very first student! She 11 and adorable. Her mom wantted to me write songs for her and I said you know she really should learn to write her own music. I offered to teach her that and to give her vocal lessons and the mom is all about it! Im so excited my first lesson with her is Sunday. I’m going to go home after this guitar workshop Im about to go into and form my first lesson plan. This week has been all about music to me. All kinds of music. Whiel studying I rediscovered some great and some of my favs Al Green, The Commadors, Michal Jackson (before he got umm weird), Journey, The Capenters, STEVIE WONDER!! OMG I forgot how much I love him and The Beatles…ugh such amazing music all over the place…Billie Holiday! I am back to my musical self. I feel more like the new me again, the strong I can do it me not the weak I dont want to so I wont. Im doing great in school for the most part. Some places I def need to improve on but hey I’m workign towards it. I am so proud of myself this week. You have no idea. I feel alive again. My ipod is one of my new best friends (Im a lonely person what can I say)

Ladies even when your down dont give up. I am such a dreamer, I always have been and honestly I always will be. Dream big or go home…I took that extreamely literally as a kid. Now I have two great songs to put on here and I’m debating which to use and which to save…Okay one is new soo I shall wait till next blog. This one is such a great blare in your car or at the gym song. It makes me want to dance! Take it to heart and run with it!

video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EZNaWFqf_OE&feature=related

Lyrics-
Hello you long shots
You dark horse runners
Hairbrush singers, dashboard drummers
Hello you wild magnolias
Just waiting to bloom

There’s a little bit of all that inside of me and you
Thank God even crazy dreams come true

I stood at the bottom of some walls I thought I couldn’t climb
I felt like Cinderella at the ball just running out of time
So I know how it feels to be afraid
Think that it’s all gonna slip away
Hold on, hold on

Here’s to you free souls, you firefly chasers
Tree climbers, porch swingers, air guitar players
Here’s to you fearless dancers, shaking walls in your bedrooms

There’s a lot of wonder left inside of me and you
Thank God even crazy dreams come true

Never let a bad day be enough
To go and talk you in to giving up
Sometimes everybody feels like you
Oh, feels like you, just like you
Yeah

I’ve met some go-getters
Some difference makers
Small town heroes, and big chance takers
I’ve met some young hearts with something to prove
Oh, yeah

Here’s to you long shots
You dark horse runners
Hairbrush singers, and dashboard drummers
Here’s to you wild magnolias
Just waiting to bloom

There’s a little bit of all that inside of me and you
Thank God even crazy dreams come true
Thank God even crazy dreams come true
Yeah

My simple win for today was on shaky ground I refused to give up on my goals so soon and had no fast food today. Went out and bought good stuff for the week.

My simple win for today- making a decision to rededicate myself to feelin fine in 09. I have remotivated and tomorrow I will set myself up for success.

Hello all!! How are we doing? I’m fantastic minus my diet! But I have some pretty good things have been going on. So last thursday I left to Pensacola to hang with my brother. We were all over the place there, the beach was amazing and Mayfort base is very nice. I ate poorly but caught myself thinking to myself no no you dont need that because you ate this earlier. So Im still pretty proud plus I really wantted to work out. We drove home Monday. I got my first speeding ticket lol and I totally deserved it but the cop was nice and reduced it for me. ANDDDDD I GOT MY FIRST NEPHEW!! He was born monday at 2:40pm. He is sooo cute and perfect. I love him soo much and my poor neice whose use to being the center of attention isnt taking it super well right now. Were trying to be as equal with her as possible. So this week I’ve been tired and kind of blah! Lacking the motivation and I found it again today of course in you ladies! Oh and also Im moving to my parents march 10, Joe and I decided to leave then cuz he found a place and that way we can get this one back on the market quicker. Im very happy with that and actually we have been more normal lately like I sat last night and studied in the same room as him. It will all be good just have to get back to healthy me. Oh and I bought some great new clothes they are amazing and were super cheap. I love a good deal. So people with diabeties started this thing called simple wins. Its a great concept I learned on www.nicksimplewins.com where nick jonas motivates people with his story. Anyways I decided to start too so everyday I will post a simple win. Something that day that was a win for me in my life. My first simple win is this weekend I fit into …a size….13!!! Now I know these pants were big compared to most 13’s but I was in this store walking around saw a size 13 and said in my head I cant wait to fit into this size so I can shop at these kinds of stores…and it fit!  So thats motivtation to keep it up. This song is fun up b eat and relaxing!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJ97wueUXEM

 Lyrics-

Slow down
Things have been a little crazy
Right now
It’s time to get away
You can find out
What it is you’re really after
Time is on our side
C’mon we’re leaving everything behind[Chorus:]
You know that sun is shining
We’ll keep driving
Doesn’t matter where
‘Cause we got that open highway
Leading our way
As long as you are there
We can go anywhere

Heyyyyy how are we today? I am pretty darn good minus my cold. Yes I got a cold but I knew it would happen from taking care of my family all week. I counter acted the cold with some meds before it got too bad now it’s just going away. So yesterday I spent all day in bed trying to let the cold go. It was fun I got a lot ofschool work done and planned out my trip to see my brother. Werre going to seem y brother in the military base. I was hoping to be 245 by then but I’ll take 248 so this week I’ve really got to be good and push myself because the last week I was pretty lazy compared to how good I’d been being. I’m getting the stuff to make chili for this week tonight.

So yesterday I got an email from a girl intersted in renting the apt! I was sooo excited but then I was scared thinking what if I’m making the wrong choice. Then last night as I lay in my bed sick he came in the apt all loud with his friends It’s just awkward and bad for me to live there now. Our first year of friendship was sooo amazing but he’s not that person anymore after two years of begging and pleaing for my friend back I finally realized people change and its over. I was upset over it and now I’m better. I know its good and I will find other great friends who will go to concerts with me and act crazy plus I have a wonderful family. Who knows maybe down the road this could help us reach some sort peace and be somewhat friends again but I’m not holding my breath for that anymore. I’m just working towards my goals. This will also help me save sooo much money to get better eqiptment for the studio. Last night my sister called me and my neice talked to me. I will be so happy to see them more. I love that little girl more than I’ve ever loved anyone in my life, theren othing I wouldnt do fore her. Tomorrow or later today she will have a little brother that I will love just as much. So I’m doing great. I’m very happy. I’m meeting the girl on tuesday to see how she is and talk things out. Well I’m at work so I guess I should get to it love you all who reads this and encourages me to be a better me. Thanks ps todays song is my sister and I’s song. When I was going to move away for school I played this for her and we both cried, this will always be our song. I love this song sooo much now it reminds me of my neice.

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-2BpNsi7uOM

Lyrics-

Every now and then
We find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You’re the best friend that I’ve found
I know you can’t stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay

* I’ll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life would just be kind
To such a gentle mind
If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way
Hmm……….. this way

I don’t need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you’ll be there
Forever more apart of time, you’re everywhere
I’ll always cares
(Repeat *)

And I’ll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I’ll be standing by your side and all you do
And I won’t ever leave
As long as you believe
You just believe

Have any of you ever stopped looked at your family and thought I’m the only sane Mother F’er here then stop again and wonder if maybe your the crazy person and they are the normal ones? I’ve spent the last few days with my family cuz A. My sister in law is due anyday and Im waiting for my newphew to get out here!! B. My sister is really sick and she my best friend so we’ve been hanging out and I’ve been helping taking care of my neice while she gets rest. Today my neice (2 1/2) and I cleaned up together, she was just so darn cute. So I guess I should admit the last few days my eating has been all down hill the postive part to my stroll through heffer county is I while eating poorly still stopped myself when full and would not allow myself to finish the foods as I normally would. So while is a minor set back it is not a fail plus I’d rather eat poorly and know Im doing it wrong while being happy spending time with my family. Plus I’m still getting my workout on! Woot Woot. But all that fun is over now as my seriousness and counting starts back in the morning.

Now I can please slap the people calling Jessica Simpson fat! That body they are critizing is my freaking goal! Ugh, Lamme. And can someone please slap my freakin roommate/ ex best friend. He was being a jerk again AND that asshole opened my mail!!! I pay our cable and he opened the bill even though its in my name then threw me a tude when I confronted him about it. I hate living with him another reason Ive been with my family. I dont even want to look at his stupid face anymore (yes PMS is here) I’m a bitter girl scorned and I know I shouldnt want revenge I know I should resist it but right now I just want blood (not literal of course Im not insane more emotional )  So I’m trying to get someone to take over the final 4months and if I cant I htink I might just have to move out ( my parents have been begging me to come back and its sooo cheaper and nicer cuz I love my parents sooo much and my sister lives there so I would be sooo happy) I was thinking of just moving all my stuff out and writing a check for the remainder of rent then cancelling the cable/internet. But I don’t know. It’s stressing me out and messing with my diet and school work….Nancy I need your shovel next!

Side note Im am sooo excited for the grammys! Tswift and Miley singing together and my boys the Jonas Brothers plus sooo much more. So I’ve got to get my self together so I can rock next week both in school and in my healither new life! Anyways, tonights song is fun and funny its great to dance to and just grove out and has a great meaning just be happy and dont care what others think!

 Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lVrrtoY–Bk

Lyrics-

Well we’ve all heard about
how the guys in the band
Weren’t the popular kids in school
And now you hate your parents
’cause of the way you turned out
But in the end the blame’s on you

And we all sympathize with your torn-apart heart
And your really artistic worldly views
It sells records when you’re sad these days
It’s super cool to be mad these days

I think rock and roll is really funny
when it’s serious

Don’t hate us ’cause we’re happy
Don’t hate us ’cause we’re beautiful
Don’t hate us if we make you smile
Or if we go the extra mile
To make someone feel better
on a really shitty day
And if you’re hearing what I’m saying then
I want you to say, “I’m gay!” (I’m gay!)
Say, “I’m gay!” (I’m gay!)

Let’s start a movement, let’s start it right now
And if you don’t know where to start
I can show you I’m your new team captain
Put your left hand over your heart
and repeat after me

It’s perfectly fine to be a happy individual
It’s perfectly fine to be a happy individual
Chris, Gary? You guys wanna join in?
(Yeah, buddy. Sure. Sorry Dude)
It’s perfectly fine to be a happy individual
It’s perfectly fine to be a happy individual
Very Nice. Very Nice.

Don’t hate us ’cause we’re happy
Don’t hate us ’cause you’re miserable
Don’t hate us if we make you smile
Or if we go the extra mile
To make someone feel better on a really shitty day
And if you’re hearing what I’m saying then
I want you to say, “I’m gay!” (I’m gay!)
Say, “I’m gay!” (I’m gay!)

That’s right, ladies and gentleman!
Pick up the phone
’cause Bowling For Soup is on the line!
And you don’t have to be sad anymore!
You don’t have to be mad anymore!
We can all join hands and do ring around
the freaking rosie!
In fact, can we can get some “La la”s up in here?

It sells records when you’re sad these days
It’s super cool to be mad these days
I think rock and roll is really funny
When it’s serious

Yo, where my “La la”s at!

La la-la la, la-la la-la
La la la la
La la-la la, la-la la-la
La la la la
La la-la la, la-la la-la
La la la la
La la-la la, la-la la-la
La la la la

So this weekend was rough. Saterday night I ate wayyyy too much and it made me sick because my body isnt use to that, it was bad. real bad. So lesson learned. I also made chicken soup but over cooked it while working out… blahhh/….So today was an okay day. My roommate annoied me but I said hey Im not letting him get me down he doesnt deserve it. So my newphew should be born sometime in the next few days. Im super excited about that. Yay, I got in a great long full workout today. I love moving my mile marker and Ive been drinking loads of water and I took my vitamins which I never do! I really think since I kind of fell off the wagon this weekend it will help my body feel less deprived and my weight will come off eaiser soooo I will make it a one day a week thing, where I can get crazy just not too crazy lol don’t want to feel how I did every again! So I’m going to make myself a yummy sunday wiht my low fat ice cream mmm…Okay Im back from my desert and it was amazing lol yummmy!! I have been so strong this year, I have fought hard the last month, I have to keep it going. Keep soaring in the clouds instead of dragging on the ground.

Im hoping to keep this weeks greatness up all week. Well the other day I listened to this song and cried. I imagined it was me talking to myself. Telling myself I will change and hold onto this life whatever it takes. Well heres my lyrics for the night enjoy!!

 video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iawro7IfoCM

Lyrics-

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn’t even know
Now there’s a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I’ll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what’s at stake
I know that I’ve let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I’ll keep us together whatever it takes

She said “If we’re gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don’t hide the broken parts that I need to see”
She said “Like it or not it’s the way it’s gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me”

I’ll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what’s at stake
I know that I’ve let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I’ll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I’d be lost without you and never find myself
Let’s hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I’ll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what’s at stake
I know I’ve let you down
And if you give me a chance
And believe that I can change
I’ll keep us together whatever it takes