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Wishes…all you need to do is just believe…just believeeeee… lol thats from the fireworks show at the magic kingdom. LAST POST OF 08!! Can you believe its 09 already? When did that happen? When did I turn 22? What’s going on here? Oh yes, its that hting called life! Life is hitting the highway and going 80 maybe even 90 so let me catch up! I’m so excited about the new year and my new dream chasing life! That’s right not goals…dreams! Sounds so much more magical! (I’m a disney nerd…it happens lol) I’m letting my what if life far from me and moving into a I’m doing it life. I’m losing weight! I’m starting my studio. I priced all the things I need to finish it up and I’m def going to have the right amount for what I need. I’m very happy about that. I’m not letting anyone get me down this year, either your with me or your in the past and I’m not looking back! I’m not going to life in the future either. I have this habit of living where I’m at my dreams in my head. No this year I’m living in the grit and the moment. Im going to take everymoment I can and pushing it towards my future. More planning and less improvising. Morei n detail and less just whatever happens happens. Im going to hit school this year with a new ferce attitude. I can get 4.0 its within my reach. I’m a brillent person. I have great book smarts and even better street smarts. I can’t make this my year! The year I make it. So many people believe in me too! You ladies do I know it! I’m so tired of being seen as the Underdog. This year is the year of my million dreams…I will rise above the ashes of my old self and lifestyle heading full force to where I want to be. And people I’m bringing you with me! I will motivated you as much as possible! Let’s run this course together!! Everyone on this site should be able to relate to this song in some way! Please remember ot be safe tonight. A cab is like 20bucks…your life is everything you have. See you in 09 looking fine!

omg!!! ps….so i just tried on all my fancy dresses for this fancy party im going to tonight and wow..they all look amazing on me! like i was 230 when i wore one of these and i feel better now than then…my outlook is really changing im so hapopy!!! i will try to get some pics im going to wear my little black dress with my 50’s hooker heels and my silver bling lol my tiara and all hehe yay im so excited about this new year!!!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uTiVV14y9dI

Lyrics-

She’s an underdog
Lives next door to me
She’s always heard you won’t amount to anything
And it kills me to watch the agony beyond her eyes
Tragic the way people pass her by
But now I realize That everyone sees her
But nobody knows her
She screams in her pillow
For a better tomorrow
She hates it
But she takes it
Watch out for that girl
One day she may change the world
She’s original
Never trying to fit in
She’s got a way to always go
Against the grain
Oh yea!
Someday they’ll see how beautiful she really is
I know that last will be the first
The tables gonna turn cause…

Hello my friends. I’m terribly sorry I havent been on for awhile. I will do my best to get back on it as far as blogging and all that goes. As well as my diet which has left much to be desired lately. Tonight my sister got my butt to the gym and my back feels great now. I’m very glad I went being scared I will rehurt it is only hurting me. I havent ate too well these holiday but I didnt eat horribly either. I’m still changing. Today for the first time I saw the progress. My face has lost weight. I can tell and its amazing. It’s the small inspiration I needed to jump back into the game.

New years looms over head. Yes I will be intoxicated. I rarely drink anymore but my brothers home from the military and Ive been tyring to spend lots of time with him before he heads back so were all going to go out and have a great time. I’m young and happy and making choices for myself I never thought I would. I get to dress up in a pretty dress and put on my good jewlrey and my tiara and go dance. Life is amazing. I’m learning a new music system. Christmas was very nice except the moment alone in my car I really missed my grandmother (who died last year) Christmas was something she always made so speical. I sat crying then prayed, perked up and went to see my family. This moment made me realize how important it is I change. The last two years have just been horrible. Last year when my grandmother died I treated my body horribly with junk food and pushed away my family. I wantted to be numb, I wantted to pretend I didnt care because thats how I got through most pains in my life but this was a different one. This year some of my closest friends were proven to be scaudrals looking out for themselves. My best friend and I we said forever and always to our friendship but now its died right in front of me. We’ve both tried very hard to save it but its when people change and their dreams change away from each other. He just doenst care anymore. My other friend lied to my face serveral times. I stopped trusting in people for a moment and Ive finally let my family and my amazing bf bring me back to life. I am beautiful and amazing just the way I am. And if they can’t see it (partdion my french) they can just fuck off. …LOL that felt good to say, I rarely curse anymore. I’m so tired of so many people being miserible jerks trying to bring us all down with them. Let’s stand up happy for once. Let’s get to our inner beauty and love ourselves for more than the scale. For more than what others say to us. For us. For me.

My song tonight is for Karma. I was saving this for mothers day but its just so beautiful. The first few times I heard it I cried. We are all here for you. Whenever you need just message us.  This song is both my parents to the core. My mother has been such a rock for me even when we didnt agree she lways supports me. My father really did when I was 14 drive me around. I spent the summer riding with him in his tow truck when I finally told him I was a cutter and needed his help to stop. I love you all so much, thank you for believing in me.

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s6jzUD2Ra-k&feature=channel_page

Lyrics- I’m five years old
It’s getting cold out
Got my big coat on

I hear your laugh
And look up at smilin at you
I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch
And the tractor rides
Look now, the sky is gold
I hug your legs
And fall asleep on the way home

I don’t know why all the trees change in the fall
But I know you’re not scared of anything at all
Don’t know if Snow White’s house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today

I’m 13 now
And don’t know how
My friends could be so mean
I come home crying
And you hold me tight
And grab the keys

And we drive and drive
Unil we found a town far enough away
And we talk and window shop
Til i forgotten all their names

I don’t know who I’m gonna talk to now at school
But I know I’m laughin
On the car ride home with you
Don’t know how long it’s gonna take to feel okay
But I know I had the best day with you today

I have an excellent father
His strengh is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother
Inside and out
He’s better than I am

I grew up in a pretty house
And I had space to run
And I had the best days with you

There is a video I found
From back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen
And you’re talkin to me
It’s the edge of princesses and priate ships
And the seven dwarves
My Daddy’s smart
And you’re the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

Now I know why the all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side
Even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
Staying back and watching me shine

And I didn’t know if you knew
So I’m takin this chance to say
I had the best day with you today

Hmmm…tonight is about healing. Healing my broken spirit the last few days with my back. I’m fighting all the stress between money issuses and my back and lack of caring what I eat. I have still not binged Ive been eating poorly in moderation still and I’m proud of that. Tomorro I work all day and it will be hell on my back Im well aware, however it will make my back stronger because my doctor said I have to keep active through the pain. He said its a minor sprain and I should be fine but this sprian hurt my will to fight yet at the same time helped it. I mean my god I’m 22 and have a back sprain. I carry most of my weight in my tummy so I know its to do with the sandbags I carry on my waist. Thi has finally became a real health issue to me. Finally I’m saying not I can do this but I will do this because I HAVE to for me! You know what I mean? I think we all need to change our outlooks from I can do this to I will and I AM! I’m on the road to success even if the road is bumpy! Let’s stand together and push through the pain to make it to a healthier place for ourselves and our families. Tonight we had a party for my brothers coming home from the military and he has lost soo much weight. I have to say I am sooo proud of that boy I watched him fight for years to be able to join the military because as a kid he had open heart surgrey. Now that he’s there he’s uch a stronger person! He fought for his dreams so I will fight for mine hoping to inspire some people along the way as he has me! I’m ready to be all I can be for myself! Im ready to say hey I can run around all day and play tennis and be healthy because I’ve lost the weight that pulls me down every single day of my life! No more! No more!!!!! I’m going to go make my lunch and diner for tomorrow! Fellow fighters lets do this! Let’s take this one step at a time together!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yzyys6kW8yg

Lyrics-

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you’ve always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can’t touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you’re gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you’re feeling more and more frustrated
And you’re getting all kind of impatient waiting

When you can’t wait any longer
But there’s no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It’s your faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

and it’s all because your by my side! Lol I love the Jonas Brothers, Disney it just so inspiring! So the last few days with my back and just money troubles and grades Ive just been sooo stressed out and bummed. It feels like everythings piling in on me. I feel like giving up and crying sometimes but then I remember all the people in my life on my side and the ones looking up to me. It gives me strenght to stand back up and fight for what I believe in. These last few days Ive jut wantted to climb in bed and hide from the world and yesterday I thought my computer broke(this is new) I just let it all freak me out so bad but luckily today I spent time with my family and friends, looking at them I realize how truely lucky I am. I have a support system no one could break through except myself. The inner battle some days just gets me down. Today this lady in the line behind me was making a scene about the dumbest/childish thing ever and I realized how lucky I am to see the pettiness some people just cant. Waiting an extra minute in a line is not worth throwing a fit over. We all feel we are entitled to certain things but guess what sometimes life is not fair and you just have to bend with it and take the blows. Sometimes we give sometimes we take. Some people get more, some get less. Some are born with great bodies some work for it, thats doesnt make anyone more or less than the other!As we exchange gifts this year lets focus on the giving. As we eat our christmas diners lets give more of the food to our friends and families, taking less for ourselves. In the long run I truely with all my heart believe giving more thna taking will be the thing thats gets us ahead in this world.

When Im stressed out over something dumb I first ask…is this going to matter in a year? How about a week? More than likely not. Maybe if my computer broke it gave me a chance to work on my music outside of my studio more, recreating my sound or get me up and out of the house more. Everything has a course and we are on ours. So the last few days have been bad and I havent felt like cooking. So I ate horribly today…but guess what.. I ate less horribly than last time. I ate less food and stopped when I was full. I NEVER stop when Im full and eating junk but I did! I didnt binge I just made poor choices in what I ate not the amount I ate. So guess what today Im still a champion, the walls built around myself meant to hold me back are beginning to crumb around me! People we can do this! We will do this. It will take time and now since my back is hurt I know more time at the pool less time at the tennis courts the first few months! I can do this and if I can I know you can! Let’s join together as a family and move towards a healthier tomorrow where all the boundries and walls we put up to hold ourselves back from our full potiental just fall away! We are only hurting ourselves! Everyday when you look in the mirror tell yourself Im in control and Im beautiful. IM WORTH THIS! WE CAN BEAT THIS! Okay sorry for that rant just needed to preach to myself for a moment! I hope you ladies give yourself a nice motivational talking to as well. The song tonight is sooo much a part of this community to me! This song is exactly how I feel about all of you ladies supporting each other here, this is who we are! This community is beyond that bathroom scale number, its about the inner support and change that needs to come from eahc and everyone of us from years of beating ourselves up! Lets stop it. These things will change! Thi song is for you, for this community! For every person out there in this fight with us! Let’s fight for what we believe in!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jX4LjIOzIFo&feature=channel_page

Lyrics-

It’s a sad picture, the final blow hits you
Somebody else gets what you wanted again
You know it’s all the same, another time and place
Repeating history and you’re getting sick of it
But I believe in whatever you do
And I’ll do anything to see it through

Because these things will change, can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It’s a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win
And we’ll sing hallelujah, we’ll sing hallelujah, oh

So you’ve been outnumbered, raided and now cornered
It’s hard to fight when the fight ain’t fair
We’re getting stronger now, found things they never found
They might be bigger, but we’re faster and never scared
You can walk away, say we don’t need this
But there’s something in your eyes, says we can beat this

Because these things will change, can you feel it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down
It’s a revolution, the time will come for us to finally win
And we’ll sing hallelujah, we’ll sing hallelujah, ohTonight we’ll stand, get off our knees
Fight for what we worked for all these years
And the battle was long, it’s the fight of our lives
But we’ll stand up champions tonight

It was the night things changed, can you see it now?
These walls that they put up to hold us back fell down
It’s a revolution, throw your hands up, cause we never gave in
We’ll sing hallelujah, we sang hallelujah
Hallelujah

Gotta love The All American Rejects.  So today was a great start went to bed earlier and woke up eariler. All signs pointed to good. Had a nice breakfast but then my roommate bf said somethign thatp ut me in a bad mood and the psm monster spiraled it downwards for a little but I quickly pulled it back together to comfort my roommate from his bad day, then we had a nice talk like we use to when we were really close and then I wrote a new song. All my songs lately have been sad so Im going to write a really fun song tomorrow. Thats my goal lol! We shall see! I talked to my brother whose away in the military, hes doing great. My back is hurting today and lord am I bloated, thats why I walk by my scale soo tempted to step on and remind myseld thats bad territory right now. So I went and played tennis for an hour man what a stress reliever! Seriously just in that little room where no one can see me jamming out to my favorite music. Im running around chasing the ball and dancing around. So much fun and Im getting so good, I can use both hands! Yep lol Im lovin it! I cant wait to start swimming again soon too I lvoe doing laps and feeling myself push my lungs. Since I classicly trained singing I can hold my breath for a pretty long period, plus swimming super helps my back! Well I hope you ladies are doing fantastic!!! And the trick to a good work out is enjoying it! If you hate it your less likely to want to do it but if you look forward to it your def gonna be doing it! Find what works for you and odnt be afraid to leave your comfort zone! As Royal Carribean says “Get out there!” lol Lets go old school with our song tonight. You cant beat Frank! Such an amazing song!!Make sure all you ladies are doing it YOUR way!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sEbgB6X6S5c

Lyrics-

And now, the end is near;
And so I face the final curtain.
My friend, Ill say it clear,
Ill state my case, of which Im certain.

Ive lived a life thats full.
Ive traveled each and evry highway;
And more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Regrets, Ive had a few;
But then again, too few to mention.
I did what I had to do
And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course;
Each careful step along the byway,
But more, much more than this,
I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, Im sure you knew
When I bit off more than I could chew.
But through it all, when there was doubt,
I ate it up and spit it out.
I faced it all and I stood tall;
And did it my way.

Ive loved, Ive laughed and cried.
Ive had my fill; my share of losing.
And now, as tears subside,
I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that;
And may I say - not in a shy way,
No, oh no not me,
I did it my way.

For what is a man, what has he got?
If not himself, then he has naught.
To say the things he truly feels;
And not the words of one who kneels.
The record shows I took the blows -
And did it my way

Gotta be something more. Somtehing more than this…hehe I love sugar land. How are we tonight ladies?? I’m doing sooo fantastic. Earlier today lord I didnt think I was going to make it lol. I had a rough morning including spilling stuff all over me making me look crazy in a store. I just stressed myself out and gave myself a panic attack. Those aqre rough for anyone who has them. But during it I said to myself I can be upset or I can fight and just suck it up making it through this and 5mins later I was feeling better. I didnt eat that well today but I stayed within my cals. I had a fantastic workout in which I just had sooo much fun by myself listening to great music playing tennis for an hour then I got a great stretch in. I’m so excited about the prospect of life. I have this one chance to show the world what Im made of!  And I fully plan to kick lifes butt right back as it tried to kick mine! So many chances and opportunites out there for us to just reach out and grasp. Over the next week I’m going to make it a point to try and make someone I don’t know smile and feel good about themselves. Let’s send out love! Ladies feel the changes we are making! Embrace them no matter how small! Hold them close to your heart and sing your Hallaluja song for realizing all of lifes precious little gifts!  Instead of oh myh god today I went to Wendys Im such a heaffer how about oh my god today I wet to Wendys and only got 1 hambuger instead of 2 plus instead of fries I got a plain baked potatoe, I am making changes! I also discovered I can have chinese food!! Yep I ordered the steamed white meat chicken and broccoli last night without any sauce then asked for a side of sweet n sour sauce. It was soo good and so healthy. I really want a steamer now I love steamed chicken! And I love broccoli now, When I was a kid I HATED it lol. Anyways Im rambling! Let me know if you girls ever need anything or are feeling low!Im always here for you. Im really loving this song right now! All my Miss Independents out there dont forget your amazing!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wtm8v6MryBk

Lyrics-

ooh it’s somethin’ about
Just somethin about the way she move
I cant figure it out
there’s somethin about her

said ooh its somethin about
kinda woman that want you but dont need you
hey i cant figure it out
there’s something about her

cause she walk like a boss
talk like a boss
manicured nails to set the pedicure off
shes fly effortlessly

and she move like a boss
do what a boss do
she got me thinkin about getting involved
thats the kinda girl i need oh

she got her own thing
thats why i love her
miss independent
wont you come and spend a little time?

ooh there’s somethin about
kinda woman that can do for herself
i look at her and it makes me proud
theres somethin about her

theres somethin oh so sexy about
kinda woman that dont even need my help
she said she got it she got it no doubt
there’s something about her

cause she work like a boss play like a boss
car and a crib she bout to pay em both off
and her bills are paid on time

she made for a boss, only a boss
anything less she tellin them to get lost
thats the girl thats on my mind

she got her own thing
thats why i love her
miss independent
wont you come and spend a little time?

she got her own thing
thats why i love her
miss independent
ooh the way we shine
miss independent yeah

mmm her favorite thing to say
dont worry i got it
mmm and everything she got
best believe she bought it

mmm she gon’ steal my heart
aint no doubt about it
girl you’re everything i need
said you’re everything i need

yeah yeah
yeah yeah, yeah yeah
yeah yeah, yeah yeah yeah, oh

she got her own thing
thats why i love her
miss independent
wont you come and spend a little time?

she got her own thing
thats why i love her
miss independent
ooh the way we shine
miss independent yeah

miss independent

So last night my back was hurting and I coulnt sleep so I took some nyquil for the back pain and sleeping. This morning I woke up and went to open my store ughhhhh I woke up straight out of a REM state and Ive just been so groggy and feeling poohy all day. I didnt eat as healthy as humanly possible but guess what it wasnt my typical junkie food it was over eating the more health choices. I went shopping today and didnt put any real junk food in the cart I wouldnt let my brain reason with my body for it.It’s getting easier step by step. I also had a meeting with my first artist for the Indie label I plan on launching next year. We panned out a plan of action for after the first of the years once I get my studio completely up and running. Hopefully we will be recording with new artist by the summer and in later fall on a mult artist tour. Just in time for me to be looking sexy in my new healthy life lol. Dream big ladies. My grandmother told me the other day she said “If you don;t know in your heart your dreams will pan out. Like if you even doubt it for a minute your going to fail yourself. Give it your all. It’s just like a marriage if you think divorce is an option you more thna likely are getting a divorce.” I took it to heart and here I am dreaming big. I’m going to put my all into it. Both my music and this healthy lifestyle. The last few days the little things have been getting to me but its all good I will make it. I am strong and incredible. Ladies I know a lot of you have big dealing with the bullies surrounding our lives. Even if its your own mind, I think we need to ask those people and ourselves why? Why are you secretly hoping I fail? Will it make you feel better for something you’ve failed? Can we work on our dreams together? Am I sabbotaging myself? Lets work hard to ask these questions. Then we HAVE to stand up to our bullies have a serious talk with them about how it hurts us and we cant be around such things now. We need no we DESERVE more! Here’s a great example of that I love this girl Taylor Swift! Let’s get to the heart of this and make sure the people we have in our lives are the people we need in our lives throughout this sturggle? They should always be part of the cure not the symptoms!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MRG3mDYlKlg&feature=channel_page

 Lyrics-

I took a chance, I took a shot
and you might think I’m bulletproof, but I’m not
you took a swing, i took it hard
and down here from the ground i see who you are

I’m sick and tired of your attitude
I’m feeling like I don’t know you
you tell me that you love me then cut me down
and i need you like a heartbeat
but you know you got a mean streak
makes me run for cover when you’re around
and here’s to you and your temper
yes, I remember what you said last night
and i know that you see what you’re doing to me
tell me why

You could write a book on how to ruin someone’s perfect day
well i get so confused and frustrated
forget what I’m trying to say, oh

why Do you have to make me feel small
so you can feel whole inside
why Do you have to put down my dreams
so you’re the only thing on my mind

I’m sick and tired of your attitude
I’m feeling like i don’t know you
you tell me that you want me then cut me down
I’m sick and tired of your reasons
I’ve got no one to believe in
you ask me for my love then you push me around
here’s to you and your temper
yes, i remember what you said last night
and i know that you see what you’re doing to me
tell me why
why, tell me why

I take a step back, let you go
I told you I’m not bulletproof
now you know

one swing ahead of the sword! I love Aladdin! It’s right to be raining here today. I love the rain. I love seeing the weight ticker drop too! I feel so much liek I can do this. Im going to excerise tonight. My body is a little sort. I am tired, you ladies are right I need to stretch more I use to be sooo flexable. I made my cheesecake and its good however a little rich so I’m going to tweak the recepie try it again then let you know. Found out today my fav bands going to be having a pseical announcment next month which pretty much means they will be announching dates for thei summer tour! I cant wait for it because I know I will be soo healthy and happy for it. But on that note I am a little bummed right now. I live in FL and if you live anywhere around here you’ve heard of the kaylee anothny case. A little girl 2 years old who looks painfully like my neice has been missing since June. Her mother has been caught lying to the police many times and refuse to say where Kaylee is. Well today not too far from their home thye found a childs remians. They wont say if its her or even a girl yet. But its still sad. Any ways not meaning to bum you out! In light if it is her at least her fmaily will have peace and maybe she will too. So the song for today means the world to me because its my fav band but the reason it was written is because one of the members found out not too long again he has type 1 diabeties…he says he wrote it on a band sugar level day and when I saw them in concert a few months ago he said this is for anyone out there having a hard time and let me tell you I was having a hard time with friends and the loss of my grandmother. I hope you enjoy it ladies, have a good day and love yourself! This probably one of the most touching songs I have ever heard in my life. Its like those days you feel everything is wrong and no one can relate to you. i think a lot of it can be related to our journey here together as well. So if your going through a hard time in your life or feel alone your not! This is for you! It also works well for losing someone.

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=elqphO4hh3M

Lyrics-

Got the news today
Doctor said I had to stay
A little bit longer
And I’ll be fine
When I thought it’d all been done
When I thought it’d all been said
A little bit longer
And I’ll be fine

But you don’t know what you got
‘Till it’s gone
And you don’t know what it’s like
To feel so low
Every time you smile or laugh you glow
You don’t even know
No no
You don’t even know

All this time goes by
Still no reason why
A little bit longer
And I’ll be fine
Waitin’ on a cure
But none of them are sure
A little bit longer
And I’ll be fine

But you don’t know what you got
‘Till it’s gone
And you don’t know what it’s like
To feel so low
And every time you smile or laugh you glow
You don’t even know
No no
You don’t even know
No no

Two, three, four!

[Oooohhh]

So I wait ’till kingdom come
All the highs and lows are gone
A little bit longer
And I’ll be fine
I’ll be
Fine

Hey Ladies!!! How are your weeks going? Are we all hanging in there? I joined the Wildcats this week which is fantastic! I’m loving it so far! Everyone’s so nice! A lot of exclemation points today hehe. My sister and I went ot the gym last night I got a good workout in without overduing it on my back. I jogged a little but not as fast as I was going. I found out I have a longer endurance going a little slower jogging and its less harmful to my back. I had a great night. Today I started to let some of my old thinking get to me but I quickly pushed those evil thought away! I feel I’m really getting somewhere this time. I realize it will take time for the results and complete mental transformation I want but if I dont continue towards thats goal today it will only be longer to reach and well I may never reach for it. I got some brownie mix at the store today and tonight I’m going to try my low fat/low sugar cheese cake recpies with a brownie bottom instead of gramcracker crust. If it workouts out I’ll figure out cals and al that good stuff then post the receipe for you ladies. Cheesecake can be very sensative so I’m hoping it works. I put on my crazy tight jeans today that lately I havent been able to wear comfortably. They fit better I give it another few months before they fit perfectly again. I’m proud of my progress and can’t wait to see more. So this song is called Were All in This Together….I love it because it’s from HSM and the schools time in the movie are The Wildcats! In the video like everyone is wearing Wildcat shirts! I have one lol! So yeah, it’s fantastic enjoy!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7zzbB17Fvo&feature=related

Lyrics-
Together, together, together everyone
Together, together, come on lets have some fun
Together, were there for each other every time
Together together come on lets do this right

Here and now its time for celebration
I finally figured it out (yeah yeah)
That all our dreams have no limitations
That’s what its all about(yeah yeah)

Everyone is special in their own way
We make each other strong (we make each other strong)
Were not the same
Were different in a good way
Together’s where we belong

We’re all in this together
Once we know
That we are
We’re all stars
And we see that
We’re all in this together
And it shows
When we stand
Hand in hand
Make our dreams come true

Together, together, together everyone
Together, together, come on lets have some fun
Together, were there for each other every time
Together together come on lets do this right

We’re all here
and speaking out with one voice
we’re going to rock the house (YEAH YEAH!)
the party’s on now everybody make some noise
come on scream and shout

We’ve arrived becuase we stuck together
Champions one and all
We’re all in this together
Once we know
That we are
We’re all stars
And we see that
We’re all in this together
And it shows
When we stand
Hand in hand
Make our dreams come true
Wild cats everywhere
Wave your hands up in the air
That’s the way we do it
Let’s get to it
Come on everyone!

tia chi practices, snow board champions, I can change a flat on my car! I might even be a rock starrr…I might even be a rock starrrrr….Love Hannah Montana….Binge eating…its evil. I totally binged today and its because I didnt eat properly. I waited too long for breakfast then had a light dinner then grazed all night but it wasnt that bad I still stayed within my cals just didnt work out because of my back. On another note my christmas tree is pretty and festive. So not the best day but hey whatever I did however have a fantastic family event today.  My family got together for the first time in a long time and it was just so nice to see everyone. We are all very excentric in different ways so when we get together its a little intense but tonight was great. So tomorrow I will start logging tomorrow and try to make a time log for when to eat what so I can get my body on a schdule.  I am in charge here body! Don’t make me kick your butt in the gym tomorrow! I will do it! Yes now I’m talking to myself! I realize how beautiful I am, I love the days when I look in the mirror and realize how pretty I really am and how much I deserve! I deserve better than the junk food I put in my body sometimes. I should be drinking more water and eating more veggies but more importantly I should be loving myself everyday all day. I want to stand up for me, for once in my life as I do every other person I believe in and love! So lets all love ourselfs. Were worth it. Look in the mirror and see the pretty, see your beautiful eyes and great smile. Freckles, dimples, beauty marks, great eye brows,cute noses! There are sooo many more beautiful features about us than the numbers on our scales and its way too often we just see those numbers to measure our worth. Let’s step back and look at the entire picture. If your not feeling beautiful throw on a little eyeliner and try something different with your hair, go outside your element! Your beautiful and worth it! Love yourselfs honey bunches! Have a good day! This song is amazing and the lyrics have such meaning here…oh and Im down 2lbs as of this morning!

Video- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=996JYAvK2Fc

 Lyrics-

I’ve got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I’m emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I’m missing
And why can’t I let go

[Chorus]
There’s gotta be more to life…
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I’m…
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it’s life, but I’m sure… there’s gotta be more
Than wanting more

I’ve got the time and I’m wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I’m half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I’m searching for something that’s missing

[repeat chorus]

Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin’ like there’s something I missed…..